Heartbeats

I remember when I was a little goth kid in high school. I was a total closet goth though. I adored HIM and My Chemical Romance. Their music was so dark and gloomy...but romantic as well. I especially liked the escapism of it all.

"We are so young
Our lives have just begun
But already we are considering
escape from this world."
-"Join Me In Death" HIM

I wanted my first car to be a hearse. And my 17th birthday was funeral themed. I was obsessed with all things morbid and macabre.
I grew out of that phase.

I would still like to escape...but not from this world. Maybe from this country or this continent. I have to many things to complete in this life. I have too many goals to cut my life short now.

I just want you all to know that you are not alone. Don't ever think you're alone in this world. If you ever think about escaping, just think about all those you will leave behind. I would never want anyone to join me in death.
I do love the song "I will follow you into the dark" by Deathcab for Cutie.

Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
         

Please don't be afraid to keep on living. I know it's hard and it sucks sometimes but you have to win. You can't lose and you can't give up. You might miss out on something you didn't know was there.

Life is too much fun to give up.