Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder

San Antonio will try and crush you. And once you leave you can never return. Things are not the same when you come back.
It makes you realize how good it is to be gone.

Spring Break 2009 is upon us. And by us I mean every school in Austin, Texas.

In a few days I will be attending any free/all ages show I can get in. I only plan to spend money on food and the American Apparel Flea Market that's going on for most of the week.

Updates from me are few and far between. That's because there is not much going on.

I spent the weekend in San Antonio. I attended an event called Luminaria. I hung out with my friends. I thrifted for a second. And I realized that the city that gave birth to me will one day be the city that kills me.

You literally have to fight your way out of San Antonio.

I don't know how I feel about posting my SXSW schedule on here. Does anyone really care what shows I'm going to attend?
Also...I don't want to set anything in stone. I might not go to some of the things I plan on attending. Shit happens.

What I did today: Sold clothes at Buffalo Exchange, Bought a kite that looks like an eagle, made rice crispy treats, baked a pizza, spent time with Kelsey, shared laughs with Andrew and Sabra, bought a new cat vest!!!

Future Husband:



Tim Roth as Mr. Orange in Reservoir Dogs.
I like his fake accent. He fooled me.
I've seen his new TV show Lie To Me. I like it!

Affirmation

recent picture of myself outside of the Blanton on the UT campus.

I might be in San Antonio this weekend.

School is....getting expensive!
I still don't know if I will continue my education at St. Edwards.

This week couldn't get any longer. Daylight savings time didn't help one bit.

"I'm trying to connect to you."
I don't know how much I should read into messages I get from the dead. Note to self: don't go looking through your old myspace messages unless you want to open wounds.

I wish I knew how to write songs because then I would be able to get out all this lyrical aggression. Blogging isn't the right outlet for poetry. At least for me.

I've been documenting the dreams that I remember. Pretty good research for the dream inspired short film I plan to make. You could say it's in pre-production right now.

I have to make a sculpture over spring break. It is supposed to be inspired by Baroque/Rococo. I will post process shots when I get things started.

I have deactivated my Facebook and joined Twitter. Sometimes you have to succumb to the lesser of two evils. Also I'm not that into stalking anymore.

Future Husband:
"I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality."



Lance Bass

the picture is a bit old school but I liked him before he buffed up, bleached his teeth, tanned way too much, and let his natural hair color show.

You're The Best Thing About Me

Getting packages in the mail is like opening presents on Christmas. I received 2 Savage Garden CD's, a Savage Garden concert DVD, and a sweet birthday present for my brother yesterday.

Spring Break is coming soon and that means South by South West. I'm going to be making my free show schedule soon. I'm a little disappointed that so many of the free shows are 21+ but I'm sure I can find enough all ages shows to attend.

Here are a few bands/artists I would like to see during SXSW:

Slim Twig


Tinted Windows


Turbo Fruits


Natalie Portman's Shaved Head


Telepathe


Mika Miko


Future Husband:



Jason Castro

I guess everyone could see this one coming from a mile away.
He reached #4 on last season's American Idol. And now he's about to release his first album!!! He's going to be performing at Texas A&M College Station at the end of this month and I can't wait to buy my ticket.
I've had the pleasure of seeing him perform live three times and formally meeting him once. I wish I had uploaded the Polaroid pictures I've taken of him but I have yet to scan them.
Well I guess I'll have to do a post with nothing but scanned Polaroids!

It's The Only Thing That Makes You Good

I spent the weekend in San Antonio. I hung out with my friends and spent time with family. It was nice. The best part though was the thrift shopping.

Here are some of the things I found at Goodwill:


























Robby made this. He let me have it when I stayed the night at his house. I'm going to turn it into a pin.



Future Husband:



Michael Pitt as Tommy Gnosis in Hedwig and the Angry Inch.
I love when he sings his version of "Wicked Little Town".

I think I'm done with the Future Husband posts. I've finally run out. I have only one left.

I'm Not Sick But I'm Not Well

(photo taken by me when I pretend to be a photographer 2009)

I'm 100% again.
I'm not sneezy-watery eyes-runny nosed anymore. Yes!
I woke up this morning and I was feeling fine.
Actually I went to sleep this morning (er was it yesterday) and woke up before class started and I was a-okay.

I was healthy enough to judge the ImprovOFF. I don't have much to say about it. Let's just say we need to work on our Improv skills as a university. Improv does not mean getting up on stage and yelling, doing slapstick, or making offensive gestures. I wasn't offended by any of the performances but I wasn't amused.
Being a judge was a lot harder than I thought. There was a lot of Math involved.

Then I went to my friend Andrew's play reading. I am assistant directing it. Or am I Assistant to the Director? Ah who knows! Alls I know is I'm getting my name on a program.

In more Hanson related news, Taylor Hanson has a side project. :O
Yeah....I'm as shocked as you are. And if you don't know who Taylor Hanson is then what are you even doing reading this blog?!
Well he's in a band with the guitarist from Smashing Pumpkins, that dude from Fountains of Wayne, and the drummer from Cheap Trick. Yeah....that's what I said. :O
His band is called Tinted Windows.



It looks pretty legit. Yet the Hanson fan in me (the Fanson if you will) wants to cry out blasphemy! It sounds like a different band yet all I can hear is Taylor, so I think Hanson. But it's not....anyway they will be unveiling themselves during none other than South by South West, the music festival that started Hanson. How ironic. I will try and attend even though they will only be performing at an official showcase and the venue is 21+.
I want to try and recreate this rare moment in history where I met my idol of over 10 years.
This photo was taken last year at SXSW and I was 19 years old. The only other time I was that happy was when I met Jason Castro. Ahhh the memories...


Have a listen to Tinted Windows and tell me what you think.




Future Husband:



Anderson Cooper
Why not?
Everyone loves the Silver Fox...

And if all the world was perfect, I would only ever want to see your scars

the japanese know how to pack a cute lunch!

Still sick. What's new?
Nothing.

I read the book The Doctor's Wife for my Japanese Women's Literature class. It was a good read. Hard to put down and I recommend it.
I'm currently reading Masks for the same class. It's a little harder to read but kinda interesting.
The Japanese culture is very mystical as a whole.
I quite enjoy Stephen Colbert's take on the Shinto religion. He likens it to that of Pokemon.
I'm just going to put this out there...If I were a Pokemon I would be Snorlax...or Gloom.
Especially right now.

I've also been reading Stephen Colbert's book I Am America (And So Can You). It's hilarious.

I have to give an informative speech in my Presentational Speaking class on Monday. I think I'm going to inform my class on Chip-tune music. I think it's going to be an interesting subject to give a speech on. We'll see how that one goes.

I have also agreed to be a judge at my school's improv comedy night on Monday. I hope I'm well enough by then because I don't want to be all "Paula Abdul" up there, slurring my speech and drooling.

In more hair related news, I will be getting a trim this week. My hair has grown out to a disgusting length and needs to be tamed. I don't really have a style in mind, I just need it out of my face.

I started watching this season's Amazing Race because Mike White and his father Mel are on the show. They are father and son who are both writers and Gay. I thought Mike White was Bi but on the show he clearly states that he is Gay. His father Mel is also a pastor for a GLBTQ church! I'm also rooting for Team Luke and Margie. Luke is deaf and his mother, Margie, is his translator. The best moment of the first episode for me was when the show's host signed to Luke and Margie that they were in 1st place for that part of the competition!!!

Future Husband:



James Spader
This man only gets hotter with age.


He was amazing in The Secretary!

Come And Get Me Outta This Town Oh Now, Come And Save Me

I have always been and will always be inspired by POGS.

I hate shopping malls.
I had to be in one today and it was terrible.
On top of that I'm still very sick.

I've created a new blog. It's not for people to read.
It is a place where I can save my research material that I have to gather for a class.
Feel free to look at it when I have some things on there but it really won't mean anything to you if you haven't seen or read The Pajama Game.

All Homework, All Weekend = Gross.

I am annoyed by all this talk of Fashion Week. Since when does EVERYBODY and their mom care about fashion and style?! I mean c'mon. It seems that everyone theses days wants to be a fashion designer or stylist. It's a lot harder than it looks by the way. I know shows like Project Runway make it all seem so easy but it's not American Idol people. You can't just sew a bunch of fabric together, put it on your anorexic friend, take a bunch of "avant garde" pictures, and call yourself a designer.

It would be the same thing as snapping a bunch of pictures with your digital camera and calling yourself a photographer.


wtf?! c'mon!

Anyway...on with my rant. Maybe I'm just really tired of reading people's reviews of Fashion Week and what designers sent down the runways. Maybe I'm annoyed because it's not even about the clothes anymore. It's about who's wearing them, and who's at the show, and who's at the after party, and who's the Dj. Some designers are celebrities, and rightfully so, but it has recently become trendy to want to work in the fashion industry.

I guess it's all these reality shows on TV that give people the impression they can just show up and give the camera some attitude and you'll be successful.

When did we all forget about hard work?

I just want to scream at those magazines and blogs, "Don't Tell Me What To Wear!!"



Here's another old photo of myself that I never published anywhere.
My hair is quite long and I'm wearing my old cat eye glasses and a mars volta t-shirt.
In the background you can see a poster that reads: Carol never wore her safety glasses. Now she doesn't need to. I'm going to estimate my age at 16 or 17 years old.

Future Husband:



Duckie fromt he movie Pretty In Pink
I wonder if this is how real teenagers dressed in the 80's or is this how they wanted us to remember the eighties?

I'm Not Where I Want to Be

I'm sick :(
I think it might be allergies.
My whole face hurts and feels stuffed.

I bought Savage Garden's CD "Affirmation" on eBay today for under $3. It made my day a little better.


I read a few articles about Crystal Castles and some interviews with Alice Glass the other day. Some things she said really stuck with me. She said that if people didn't spend so much money on clothes and just made what they had work, then they would look a lot better. She also confessed to wearing her grandmother's hand me down clothes and stuff from used clothing warehouses.
It definitely made me think twice about all the clothing purchases I've made and how much money I wasted on clothes I hardly ever wear.

I've already decided that I'm going to save a lot of my clothing to give to my future children or use it as part of my personal costume stock.

Fashion is cyclical so anything that is in style now is bound to be fashionable in the future.



this is a really old picture of me taken by my friend frank
i never posted this anywhere but I think now is a good time
judging from my haircut and glasses I was 17 or 18 years old

Future Husband:



Ville Valo
Lead singer of Finnish rock band HIM
I love his voice and his style.
I could learn to get over the chain-smoking and constant drinking.

I want to thank everyone who reads this blog and leaves comments.
You make my day better.

Never Sleep...You're Just Giving In

One of the best music videos I've seen in a long time.
Fever Ray "When I Grow Up" (the singer is Karin from The Knife)





Favorite Crystal Castles song:
"Tell Me What To Swallow"



I've been looking at music videos a lot more analytically now since I will be directing one soon. I would love to make more than one video but I don't think time permits.

Future Husband:



Stefan Olsdal of Placebo
I fell in love with him when I saw Placebo on the Projekt Revolution Tour.
I know he's not into girls but I think it's safe to say that I have a special place in my heart for the gays.

Creepin' Up On You

The Horrors
April 24th, 2009 @ Emo's in Austin, Texas

I'm there.




I just bought this awesome Savage Garden concert DVD on eBay!!!

Future Husband:



Nick Cave
With haunting good looks and songs filled with macabre and romance, who wouldn't want to marry him?
He's also an Aussie like Darren and Daniel of Savage Garden!

If you need to crash then crash and burn you're not alone

Crystal Castles anyone?


photo taken by me during SXSW '08
April 13th La Zona Rosa Austin, Texas
I bought my ticket yesterday as soon as I found out.

Recent thrift purchases:


2 Dior V-neck sweatshirts


Huge lot of yarn for only $10


Black Net Shirt


Mustard V-neck Sweatshirt


3-D Dreamcatcher

I decided that the only way I could wear this cotton candy pink Dior sweater was with a Fruits/Harajuku outfit. I threw this look together with stuff in my closet that I never wear.
I don't think anyone could take me seriously looking like this so maybe this style isn't for me.


heart glasses: gift from bekah
pink Dior sweater: thrifted
ice cream necklace: self-made
fur koala face purse: borrowed from my aunt
plastic strawberry purse: flea market
polka dot minnie mouse skirt: costume shop

Future Husband:


Jack White of The White Stripes

"let's get married in a big cathedral by a priest if I'm the one that you love the most you could say I do at least"
-Hotel Yorba

A Picture Is Worth A Thousand Words

self portrait


gift from sarah


gift from rebecca and sonny


my drawing of darren hayes


shoe project


LSDj was a gift from Jen & Tomas


photo taken by me


a valentine's gift from my parents

Future Husband:


Matthew Followill (Kings of Leon)