Where do all the lovers meet with one another?

Nathan Vasquez (Be Your Own Pet)
Originally uploaded by shawn brackbill

Future Husband:

Former bassist for the now broken up band Be Your Own Pet. He and I are like the same age and I've met him twice before. He's a really nice guy. I thought he was the cutest member of BYOP. I was really sad when I heard they broke up. Even though they were only around for a few years, they totally inspired me. I even won their banned music video contest for the song "Black Hole". The other guys in the band are pretty cute but I was charmed by Nathan's afro, braces, and bushy eyebrows.

Their song "Bummer Time" pretty much sums up how I feel about them now.

I think about you all week long
my mind constantly singing your theme song
and did you know I looked up to you
I want to be just like you

No one knows how it was for me
No one know what you meant to me
Everyone talks about it like they were there
All this nostalgia but nobody cares
Everyone talks about it like they were there
All this nostalgia but nobody cares

I woke up early just for you
I'd wait all week long for you too
And there you were on my t.v.
I thought you were there just for me

Bummer Time! Bummer Time! Its Bummer Time!

Every time you came I played along
I didn't know that you'd do me, god
And now your back what can I say
I can't even look at you the same way

No one knows how it was for me
No one know what you meant to me
Everyone talks about it like they were there
All this nostalgia but nobody cares
Everyone talks about it like they were there
All this nostalgia but nobody cares

I woke up early just for you
I'd wait all week long for you too
And there you were on my t.v.
I thought you were there just for me

Bummer Time!

Teenage Lovers Between The Sheets

While in San Antonio last week I bought an unusual instrument from the thrift store near my old house. It was Black Friday so everything was 50% off. I purchased a kantele and sheet music for $15. I didn't know what it was at first but my friend and I did some extensive research and we found that it was a Finnish instrument with a mythological background. Pretty cool. I sold it to Rebecca for her band JEN. She really wanted an auto harp because it's huggable but the kantele can totally be hugged.

I've wanted to direct a music video for Jason Castro ever since I won Be Your Own Pet's video contest this past summer. He currently has no "official" music video or album. I just can't see Jason in an expensive music video. He's so modest and humble. I could see something low key and independently directed. And who better to direct his first video than a fan of his music.

If I could choose I would create a video for his new song "Shine Your Light" or "Love Uncompromised"



I've already made up in my mind what this video would look like.

Future Husband:



Bud Cort in the film Harold and Maude.
He has the creepy sort of cuteness in the movie.
I think his character made me fall in love with the macabre.
As a result, I made my parents rent me a hearse for my 17th birthday and for my Prom.

Me Ten Months

I received the Gibson Epiphone Electric Guitar in the mail today. I won it through the Banned Video Contest. It is black and autographed by the band Be Your Own Pet in silver sharpie.
Now I have an electric guitar and a keyboard. And I am in the process of turning the old Gameboy I bought on ebay into a music making device. It also came with an awesome carrying case. I will display pictures as soon as I take some quality ones. It's weird though, because as soon as I get my hands on things everyone else wants them. Someone at work offered to buy my new guitar from me today. If I told my brother I had it then he would request that I lend it to him so he could "jam" in his room. He also wants the cheap keyboard I stole from a gypsy. Then my friend asked if I would sell my keyboard to him. They all say it is because they want to start making music. Well so do I. That's why I got the things in the first place. I don't plan on parting with my instruments any time soon and I actually plan on acquiring a few amps and pedals and maybe even some circuit bent instruments.
It's strange how people feed off of you. They either want everything you have or they want to be the opposite of you.

I've been flipping through NYLON magazine lately. It is kind of like my Bible. But lately it is starting to bore me and I don't like that. I am becoming cooler than the publication that made me cool. I guess you grow out of things. I used to read ELLEgirl when I was in middle school. Then I graduated to Nylon. And when I was in elementary I read Teen Beat and Tiger Beat. Those kinds of magazines make you hate yourself I think. They hold no substance what so ever.
I hope to work for an awesome magazine one day. Maybe I'll just start my own.

I'm not sure what my style is at the moment. I don't have a label but I would like one. We spend most of our energy labeling each other. I like to know what category I fit into. The only way I can describe the way I dress is: little boy who wants to be a girl. I wear lots of over-sized t-shirts and Keds or boyish sneakers. I like my hair very short now with small bangs. I wish I could pull of the androgynous look but my body is too curvy and I'm not tall enough to be mistaken for a boy.
I used to want to dress like a post-apocalyptic raver but then I thought that would take to much explaining. So I changed it to Neon Native American. Mostly I would like to look un-American. I'm excited for my semester abroad in London. It is over a year from now but I am anxious to experience the street style first hand.

I am looking forward to buying a black leather biker jacket, moccasins, a fedora (and I hate the way I look in hats), a black pencil skirt, and one piece outfits (i.e. rompers, overalls, jumpers).

My style icons at the moment are Alice Glass, Lovefoxxx, Beth Ditto, Agyness, Enid Coleslaw, and Gameboy/Gamegirl.

I want to be fly like these cats (minus the booze).

Contestants

So you know that video I mentioned my friends and I were making for a contest? Well it won! You heard it right. We won the video contest for Be Your Own Pet's song "Black Hole". And now we are getting a signed guitar and shoes in the mail. And our video is the Official Black Hole video. How cool. It was all thanks to the lovely kids who helped me bring my vision to life. Thank you guys. And thank you byoP for letting me show you how much of a fan I am. What is next for my team? We will have a Food Fight Party to celebrate our succes! I haven't worked out all the details yet but it will happen before this month is over.
I have yet to update you with pics of my thrift purchases but I will do that as soon as I have time. I have been a bit busy with work lately and I currently have a sore throat. This success though has filled me with enough energy to create more adventures for the future.
I am in the process of purchasing the equipment to make chiptune music, a ticket to see Jason Castro on the Idols Live tour, and I have purchased many pieces of second hand fabric for future clothing projects.
I am also still in the process of planning and executing my summer party I plan to throw. I will be a swap meet with live performances and DJ sets. I'm excited...are you?

Random things I love:
Baby Names
(I want to know what you would name your baby.)
Unique Etsy Shops
Swedish Kids like the ones in the band Alphabeat


And I love you for reading my bloggy.
Send me links to good blogs you know about and I think I would like.
Oh I almost forgot! here is the video that won the contest!

Songs for Singers

I wrote some lyrics to what will become an amazing song soon. It is called "You're So Cute, If You Didn't Exist I'd Make You Up" or something like that. I got the idea after seeing a picture comment of this boy who inspired me to get started making music. I don't particularly like this kid but he did give me tips on free music making software so he's cool in my book.
The song is naturally about finding a cute boy on Myspace and then totally alienating him to the point where he blocks you from his profile. Ahh to be young and part of the Myspace generation.
Well I got paid for the first time today at Subway. A good 90% of that money will be going to St. Edward's University in Austin, Texas. But I am also saving some for investment in thrift shopping and reselling online.
I would like people to quote me as much as possible. It really helps me think about what I say twice. That and it puts a smile on my face like no other. Oh wait, there is one other thing that puts a smile on my face...



Fine Colombian boys with serene faces. This kid is way more adorable than you think. And yesterday he had a date with all of his fans through a vlog update. Too cute. Mean time I was singin' "wish for you on a falling star, wonderin' where you are. do i cross your mind in the warm sunshine? he's in the city of angels..." Haha! LFO still has it.
Well hopefully my friends and I can finish the video we're doing for "Black Hole" in the next two days because I don't have any other days off until next week. And it is hard to round up a bunch of teens even in the summer.

I am also currently looking for local Texas bands, performers, and DJs to play at the event I'm hosting along with Alamo Wasteland on the 1st of August. It's gonna be so awesome but I need everyone's help to make it all go well. Please send me a message if you know of any bands who want to play shows in the summer. And preferably bands that don't charge money. This is going to be a free event so I don't expect to make anything.