Shine Your Light When Things Start To Look Dim

When wood is broken it can never be repaired.
You can try and glue the pieces together but they will always be fragmented and weak.
Holidays are wasteful and hurtful. They really test the strength of a family.
I went home to San Antonio for Thanksgiving. I really wanted to go to Tulsa for the weekend.
That didn't happen. But it's okay because I got to spend time with my old friends who I hadn't seen in so long. And I was able to catch some great live music and do a little thrift shopping.
I don't know when I'll be back in San Antonio or if I'll ever go back.
Maybe I'll be back to visit friends. I just feel as though I have no place there.
I can never go back home because home is where the heart is and mine is broken.

Even though I didn't get to attend Jason Castro's concert in Tulsa I was able to see it all happen through a live feed via the internet.
It was magical and he truly inspires. He's inspired me to shine my light as bright as I can.

I've been bewitched by the Polyphonic Spree song "Hold Me Now". Give it a listen and I dare you not to feel good afterward.

Wunderkind of note: Marcus Rubio


I caught his act this week and was very pleased by his performance. I hope to one day direct a music video of his. Or maybe he could score a short film of mine. He really makes the San Antonio music scene look good.
www.myspace.com/marcusrubio

Future Husband:



Stephen Colbert
I first fell for him as Chuck Noblett in Strangers with Candy.
Truth be told he is married, but everyone needs a mistress.
And he still teaches Sunday School every week.

Make Mom and Dad Proud

My short film trailer was premiered at the film festival. It went well. I got a lot of good feed back and some people even wanted to see the full length. I had to tell them there was none and might never be one. I can't say that. I should say that there wouldn't be one any time soon. I will try and get it on Youtube and onto this blog asap. I'm just not sure how.
I was so nervous. I didn't win any awards or prizes or anything. But I didn't mind. The nice words were good enough.

I am excited to start my newest project. I want to make a mocumentary. There was one at the film festival and I thought it was hilarious. It was made by some of my friends and it reminded me of Christopher Guest's genius. I would like to make one about cults and weird religious behavior and hippie communes. I mostly want to make this film because of the potential for awesome costumes. And weird make up and soundtrack. Not actual content. Comment if you'd like to be in my next venture. I need a lot of actors with little to no talent. All ages, all body types, and all ethnicities. I really want to get started on this during the Christmas break. I will edit it during the Spring semester.

By the way...I want to make more music videos. Maybe with the real band in it this time. Just thought I'd put it out there.

The road trip is still on as of this moment. Abe is driving. Frank is shotgun. I like the peace in the backseat. I will be busy napping and journaling our trip. Hopefully we can stop at a few thrift shops.
It would make for fun pit stops and shopping expeditions. I'm not sure if I will make a video of anything. I'm hoping to get some new pictures of me and Jason.

Future Husband:



Andrew Vanwyngarden of MGMT
I think he pretty much gets the mystical side of me.
And he has the most adorable face.



Don't we make a cute couple?