I Love You But I've Chosen Darkness

An impromptu photo shoot i did with Abe and Javi as photographers...oh yeah Ryan was there too. This is how I spent my Easter holiday, rolling around in a field of flowers while three presumably gay men took photos of me and called me "mystical".

I hope this will quench your insatiable thirst for my blog, readers...if only for a little while.

I also feel as though this picture post is a sequel to my previous "Dark Flower Child" post. What are your thoughts on that?











oh and p.s. I'm not wearing a wig.

You Are Not Alone

everyone has problems.
and everyone has it hard, especially right now.
you're not the only one.

when you're complaining about how hard your life is, just take a minute to think that someone out there has it harder than you.

I'm just saying, don't take things for granted. Be grateful for all that you have.

In other news I got started on my zine today. Mystical One should be out the same day my music video premieres.

I'm seriously considering submitting a short film to the San Antonio Film Festival.

My etsy shop Knitted Bliss 88 is almost up and running. I have yet to post any items but as soon as I have models and some time to take and upload pictures I will take care of that.

I think song lyrics can save your life. The fact that someone put what you are feeling to music makes you feel as though your life has a soundtrack.

"Come and get me outta this town oh now, come and save me...come and rescue me from this giant hotel full of bones and babies."
- "64 little white things"
Cake Bake Betty

"I heard you crying
Somebody stole my soul
How could I be dying
I turned 20, Five days ago

We're all on the ground,just crying out
Somebody save me please
I won't sit around just thinking about
The troubles that tomorrow brings"

- "Dying to be Alive"
Hanson

Compared to others around me, my life is running quite smooth.

Play Me Those Songs That Remind You of Me

Today I attended my Tuesday/Thursday classes. I have Costume Design first and then Entrepreneurship. They seem very intense but I think I'm going to learn a lot in them. And both of my professors seem really cool.

I also watched a couple of Youtube videos on how to knit and hand weave. I didn't have knitting needles so I just attempted hand weaving from what I remembered. It was quite easy and seems like a simple hobby. I'm going to be experimenting with new weaving techniques. I'm also going to try and internet teach myself how to make interesting friendship bracelets. I will try and document my successes and failures. Everyone should learn from their mistakes.

I would like to add more videos to my Youtube channel. But I'm not sure what direction I want it to go. Comedy, Informative, Drama, Music...they all seem great but not very new. I don't want to have one of those channels where they just talk in front of the camera for five minutes. Or they edit it so cleverly that there's like two seconds of them making a weird noise between clips. That's so cliche.

Well I also want to start a zine soon. Anyone interested? I want it to be about all things mystical and awesome. I want to make a zine that I would love to read. Just thought I'd put that out there.

I just want to say thanks to who ever leaves me comments on my blog. It gives me a reason to update. But who am I kidding...I would update it anyway even if Ingrid didn't read it.

Future Husband:



Dev Patel
He was kind of amazing in "Slumdog Millionaire" and more charming with a British accent on the TV show "Skins".
And he totally looks like the dorky Mexican boys I've always gone to school with.