Let's Start A Band

I am currently growing my hair out.
I don't think I will cut it until it has grown long enough for a style.
I want LONG and BIG hair that I can braid and tease up.
Thanksgiving seems like a boring holiday to me. I feel like wearing a vest with cats on it and serving food to the homeless and less fortunate. I want someone else to enjoy the holiday. I would just take it for granted. I'm not sure if I will spend it in Austin or San Antonio. We will see.
I want to be done with this semester by the time Thanksgiving break comes around.


"I've Never Been to Heaven but I've Been to Oklahoma."


I am seriously considering taking a road trip to Tulsa, Oklahoma the weekend of Thanksgiving. I want to see Jason in concert again and possibly visit my friend Samantha. My friend April expressed interest in going with me but I'm not sure if she's sincere. If you wanna come with me then just tell me in a comment. I would love some company. And admission to Jason's gig is only $25. It might be a bit pricey to travel but it's affordable if you split the cost.

Road trip soundtrack: Hanson "Middle of Nowhere" ....duh!

Blog About Me Sometime

I'm working on new and exciting things again. Right now I'm in the process of filming scenes for a trailer I'm making for a short film I'm thinking about making. I will premiere the trailer at the Sorin Reel Film Festival at school. I'm very excited about showing everyone this story I've had in my head. I first came up with it this summer and now it is coming to life with the help of a few friends.
The short film is titled Etienne's Gaining Weight. It is a film about two eccentric gay teenage outcasts in the Midwest who attempt a heterosexual relationship in order to be free of sin and end up falling in love with each other. I don't know if the trailer to this short film will explain the story fully but I hope that the audience walks away with some understanding.
If you read some of my older posts then you might remember what short film idea I'm making reference to. The idea came to me this past summer when I was suffering from insomnia and I needed to create an alternate world to retreat to. I made up the two characters Gemma and Etienne who's names have changed many times since then. There story is still the same. I'm not sure what sort of message this short film is supposed to be sending but I am in no way trying to pass judgment on anyone's sexual orientation. This story is more about Christ's love than human love. It's hard to believe but it's true. I'll post the video of the trailer as soon as it's done so that you may see for yourself.

I've also been working on more tangible forms of art such as hats and felting. I finally finished the hat project for my costume class and I am very proud of my final product. I will post some quality pictures as soon as I have some taken for my portfolio. Now our class is moving on to dyeing silk and distressing fabrics. I'm glad I decided to take that class and I'm anticipating the classes I will be taking next semester.

I have been having day dreams of a possible road trip this summer. Nothing big and no where far. I just want to travel to Marfa, Texas. I've been to Marfa once before and I feel the need to see it again in all it's glory. I will need companions.
What I really want is to go on tour with a band. I want to be a merch girl or a personal assistant. I really want to travel and sleep in buses and go days without showering and find myself at a truck stop at 5 in the morning. Nothing would make me happier.

Dear Jason Castro,
Please take me on tour with you next summer. I want to spend all summer with your spirit.



P.S. Does anybody out there wanna road trip with me this Thanksgiving weekend to Tulsa, Oklahoma? We can visit the birthplace of Hanson and I heard about this little show on the 29th at the Fly Trap Music Hall. This guy named Jason Castro will be playing his first show there since American Idol. I really want to go. Early birthday/Christmas gifts anyone??

Once Upon A Blog...

I haven't updated this blog for a long time because of lack of inspiration.
I really have nothing to blog about but I felt I should update whoever reads this anyway. I get annoyed by old un-updated blogz.
College is hard. But also rewarding.
I have two classes and one on-campus job. It is a full schedule for me.

Last weekend was really fun. I went with my friend Andrew and my roommate Caroline to see CSS at Stubb's. It was a fun show. They opened up for Gnarls Barkley. We left before Gnarls Barkley went on and waited outside the venue to meet the members of CSS. Andrew and I ended up meeting Ana, Adriano, and Lovefoxxx. We spoke to Ana about how we wanted to see them perform the next day at ACL but we didn't have the money for tickets.
Ana then took our names and put us on the guest list!!! Then we asked Lovefoxxx about it and she said that they didn't have any friends in Austin and they would love for us to see them at ACL.



On Saturday Andrew and I headed over to Zilker Park to attend Austin City Limits. We checked the Guest List and we were for sure on it! Andrew and I were handed two free Saturday passes to ACL. We entered the festival right when CSS started performing. Andrew and I made our way toward the stage and got pretty close. Cansei de Ser Sexy put on a good show and Lovefoxxx said it was the biggest crowd they had ever played for in America. I was proud to be a part of it.
Then I saw MGMT perform. I've seen them before but it only made me excited to see them again. I thought their show was enjoyable considering I was stuck in a crowd of sweaty festival goers. When Ben and Andrew performed "Kids", Andrew Vanwyngarden held up a large red crystal and that he rubbed against the strings of a guitar. It was quite psychadelic.
After their performance Andrew (Zimmer) and I waited in line for the bathroom for an obscene amount of time. Then we checked out the merch and headed home.
I thought it was a pretty good weekend all in all.

I have way too many things to blog about right now and I just don't have the motivation to do it.
I am in a constant state of anticipation though. I'm learning so much about myself right now and it just feels right to be going to school half time. I don't think I could take it any other way. Next semester I will have to be full time though.

Till my next blog....whenever that will be.

Oh and p.s. This is Andrew.


He's a Style Troll.

And this picture blew my mind the other day.

I hope I get to see him in concert again this December. It would be an amazing birthday present.

Score One For the Sloths!

I'm back! I'm back! I'm baaaack!
At school. At home. At peace.
So much to process and not enough time to write it all down.
So I got my stuff squared away and I'm back at school.
Half time. Taking two classes and working an on-campus job at the costume shop.
I love all my friends and my family.
I have 3 lovely roommates who I'm ecstatic to be living with.
I have so much to blog about.
But I guess this one should be about school.
Okay well I'm in Austin and today was my first official day of classes.
I hung out with some friends today and got caught up.
I attended a meeting for Alpha Psi Omega, the theater fraternity I'm in.
This semester I am an officer for APO!!! I'm the Historian. Well one of the historians.
And this week is pledge week. Lots of fun and lots of stuff to do.
I had a great summer and met some great people.
One in particular goes by the name Jason Castro.
But I'll blog more on that later.
For now all you must know is that my life is great and I'm so grateful for all that I have.
Oh and giving up buying clothes and accessories is harder than I thought.

I'll keep shining dude.

Happy Ending

"That when everything starts breaking down/
You take the pieces off the ground/
And show this wicked town/
something beautiful and new"

God answered my prayers. I am on my way again. At one point I had thought all hope was lost but my friends and family brought my spirits up. I received a phone call this morning that made me cry hard tears of joy.
One way or another I'm headed home. Where I feel most at home.
I don't want to give it all away right now. I don't want to jinx it.

Even if they don't read this, I just want to say thank you to all of my friends who attended my sale on Wednesday. It meant so much to me. I understand that some of my friends couldn't make it. But to those of you who could but didn't want to, just know that you won't stop me from becoming who I am suppose to be.
I am an investment. I will be worth so much in the future. Start investing in me now people and your profits will be ten fold. I am not just talking money. Because time is money.
I have made investments in many young people who I think will become great leaders in there chosen field some day. I would like it if more people did the same for me.

I will have to make many many sacrifices for the year ahead. Unfortunately, that means I can't spend any more money on clothing and accessories. Even though I buy most of my things second hand, I would still have to stop spending on material things that do not better me. It's going to be hard. I have become a consumer and a shop-aholic at thrift stores. I guess I will just have to visit these places less frequently and get by with spending as little money as possible.
I like the challenge but I don't know if I can give some things up. I love live music. Maybe that can be my one luxury. I might have to limit the number of shows and concerts I attend though.

I know I'm going to do a lot more selling. I plan on selling the clothing I already have that is not being used and the clothing and accessories that I will be creating for this purpose. I am a born entrepreneur.

Ready or not, here I come.

Blog Till It Hurts

Gosh! Have you ever wanted to start a band?! Well I have. I do. Right at this moment. And I think it is because I feel as though I am not impacting enough people. When you are in a band you make an impact on people's lives. I think. Well my newest mini-obsession is the band M83. Well it is more of just one person but with a persona I guess and a backup band. I've thought about just doing solo music but I would feel so...alone. Most performers nowadays are solo and they just go by a name like a band would. Like PlayRadioPlay!...it's just Dan but when he tours he needs a drummer and a guitarist and others. But he can play all the instruments by himself. I don't know how to play an instrument. And I'm not even that good at singing. But what I lack in skill and talent I make up for in personality, poise, presence, and style. I think I look like the lead singer of a band. One time this guy in a store told me and my friend that we both looked like drummers :)
I guess. He was a model. What do they know?

The hardest part of starting a band though is finding a good band name. All the good ones are taken. I've googled and Myspace searched all the best ones I could come up with but it was in vain. All my best ideas were already thought.

Back to the band M83. I stumbled upon them by chance while flipping through TeenVogue. The cover to their album Saturdays=Youth just caught my eye.



Upon listening to a few of their songs I fell in love. M83 sounds like a cute French boy whispering a diary (or blog) entry into your ear and a fuzzy guitar vibrating in your other ear while you are watching the best 80's movie on television. There music video are really awesome and are perfect examples of the kind of short films I'd like to make.


I feel old. I should have started being awesome and creative earlier in life so that I could have been a child prodigy or wunderkind. I just thought I'd tell you that.

If I were you the questions I would ask me would be:
What type of music do you want to make?
My answer: Chiptune/Christian/Dance/Electronica/Praise&Worship
Who would be in your band?
My answer: My friends of course and also people from other bands who would do guest vocals on some tracks
What sets your "band" apart from all other bands?
My answer: I haven't found any Praise&Worship music to dance to yet....so my band would fill that gap by providing dance-able music for young Christians to enjoy.

Trash & Fashion

Some dreams come true while others miss the mark. I feel as if though I try my hardest but I am not trying hard enough. The Swap Meet that I hosted was not all that it could have been. This was mostly due to the fact that very few people showed up. It was still a lot of fun and lots of awesome things were swapped. Everyone who attended walked away happy with their new trades. I don't understand why it's so hard to do fun stuff in San Antonio. We just like to keep things lame I guess. It was like pulling teeth just to get people to attend. Maybe the whole idea was too new for everyone. Once everyone at the swap got the hang of things then it was quite fun and exciting. I even managed to make some money. But unfortunately I spent more than I made on buying food and drinks for people who didn't even show up like they said they would. Don't make promises that you cannot keep people.

After the swap meet was over The Franks and I made our way to South Alamo for First Friday. I was surprised by how many people were out and about enjoying the festivities. We bumped into several people we knew and found ourselves enjoying a live performance at Ruta Maya. I think this will be the new hip place to be in San Antonio. The only other cool place like it here is Mad Hatters.

Today I went with the Franks to the Omni Hotel to apply for a job at Urban Outfitters. They are opening one in San Antonio this Fall and I encouraged both of my friends to apply. I also filled out an application because they informed me that they are always hiring at the Austin location. My plans are to move to Austin one way or another this Fall so I really do hope that I get this job. I also hope that the Franks become gainfully employed at Urban as well.

I spent the whole weekend with my similarly named friends and experienced many happy moments. We went swimming, had a slumber party, stayed up late, talked a lot of crap about people, and looked at the new Fall fashion runways. It was very exciting and we had much to gab about as all three of us are aspiring fashion designers.

The Franks tolerate my love for Idol #4 and I was pleased when I saw a resemblance on the runways for this upcoming season.

Idols Jason and Syesha channel Gareth Pugh's A/W '08 looks!





We also chatted a lot about what we'd like to dress like for the Fall and Winter and our next event. It is going to be a secret one this time. Since no one understands the events that we try and put together...this next one will be just for us. Maybe you'll read about it in my next blog.
Every day I feel that I am one day closer to the person I am suppose to be. I'm excited to one day be that person.