Don't Die Maude!

dontdiemaude.tumblr.com

2011-08-12T20:09:00.000-07:00

i dont live here anymore

2011-05-29T20:58:00.000-07:00

Enchanted Forests of Emerald Green

2011-04-06T22:01:00.000-07:00

first born unicorn

2011-02-25T23:18:00.000-08:00

"One day you fall for this boy. And he touches you with his fingers. And he burns holes in your skin with his mouth. And it hurts when you look at him. And it hurts when you don't. And it feels like someone's cut you open with a jagged piece of glass."

i was born this way

2011-02-11T21:18:00.000-08:00

moving on
leaving one place for another
ending one thing
starting another
will you still read this blog even if we don't talk anymore?
i love you.
YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

I Haven't Forgotten About This Little Place

2011-01-05T23:32:00.000-08:00

Noche Caliente: Season of The Witch

2010-10-22T18:06:00.000-07:00

excuse the absence. i have not forgotten you.

haven't posted in a while blah blah blah yadda yadda dontgiveafuck.
well i've been focusing on my job and my relationship.
eating many xxl chalupas from taco smell
and generally spending wayyy too much money on stuff.
well at least it's money i earned.

here are some pictures that were supposed be for this blog but got lost.
my hair is slightly diff now but you get the jist.

frank on a regular day in the sun.

From The South show

my love nate doing his thing

I will be face painting outside Buffalo Exchange San Antonio on the 30th of October I believe. It's free.
Come on over and I will paint something spooky on your face!

x till we meet again

Endless Summer

2010-08-24T19:37:00.000-07:00

All pictures taken by me with a disposable waterproof camera :)

In Texas, Beneath The Yellow Sand

2010-07-27T18:52:00.000-07:00

I totes have the cardigan in this picture. I bought it for a dollar at a thrift store in town.

all but one pic from spanish moss vintage blog

I HATE YOUR BLOG!

2010-07-13T22:01:00.000-07:00

I've been hella busy lately.
I got a super sweet job working as a buyer trainee at the new Buffalo Exchange that opened up in San Antonio.
We've been open for a little over a week now and things have been going good.

It's strange how I see people that I never even knew existed in this town as soon as the store opened. It's as if they crawled out of the wood works just to visit the store.

My friend Nati opened up a Goth Industrial Rave store in Cross Roads Mall. It's called Nine Tails and I think you should give it a look. It's quite interesting. I might take some pics of the store to show on this blog.

And the only other thing that has happened to me lately is that I got a haircut and dyed my hair purple, pink, and teal to match my love for all things Lisa Frank.

Oh! And to celebrate getting hired at Buffalo I bought a pair of these amazing boots:

oh the things you miss when you're fast asleep...

I Will Start A Teenage Coven †

2010-05-29T03:40:00.000-07:00

I'm not usually a Goldfrapp fan but this video is kinda occult and weird. I like it.

Well You Wanted A Post, You Gotta Post

2010-05-24T03:20:00.000-07:00

You know it's a bad thing when your friends remind you that you need to update your blog. Saying sorry won't make up for these tardy posts.

What have I been up to?
Work.
On-line courses.
Nathan.
Friends.
Learning How to Face Paint!

This is my face paint design of Pikachu! I use Mehron Paradise paints. I bought 5 color palettes off eBay because I wanted to start a small clown business. Nothing big. Just kids parties and church festivals. I'm thinking of calling it Straight Up Clownin'.

I saw my boyfriend's band From The South perform a show this past Saturday.
Here are some pictures I took. It was a really cool show and a lot of family and friends came out to support.

Nathan, looking epically sexy!

The day after that I saw Jason Castro perform at the White Rabbit. I counted and this is the 7th time I've seen him. And it never gets old. I'm always left wanting more.

He played another awesome show and talked to all of his fans afterward. I was really happy that he remembered me. He meets hundreds of people at every show but I feel like I left an impression. Except he always thinks I'm from Houston! Haha. Whatev.

I want to thank all the people who have been following me. And a special thanks to Kim Smith for choosing me as her Thursday Traveler Spotlight Blog. I'm happy to keep you entertained Kim and thanks for recommending my blog!
Check out Kim's blog:
http://www.writingspace.blogspot.com

I never mentioned that during SXSW this year I went to see Karen Elson perform. I met her afterward and she was a wonderful person. I told her all about how my brother loved her and she autographed a paper for him. The note said
Dear Albert,
Much love and Darkness
Karen Elson
XOXO

Karen is so lovely. I'm going to buy her album when it comes out this week!

And in that same week I met Jake Shears of Scissor Sisters. Frank and I got to see them perform the last night of SXSW. It was an amazing show. I'm very lucky to have seen them perform live.

It was an unusually cold day during Spring Break, that's why we are all bundled up. If you are a long time reader of my blog you might remember that I used to do a thing called "Future Husband". Well I can add Jake Shears to my list of Future Husbands I've already met!

I also met Margaret Cho that very same night!

Is it bad to say that I liked her better when she was chubbier? Well she's a great comedian either way.

The House That Vintage Built

2010-04-23T02:14:00.000-07:00

Nathan spent the day with me at Vintage House again and helped me take photos of a few of my favorite pieces of clothing from the store.

This mu-mu is great and compliments my dark hippie look but it is far too long for my short frame, unfortunately. It is also kinda see-thru but that adds a sexy appeal lol!

I plan on buying this cute blouse. Nathan loved it on me.

This coat was a gift from Karla, the store owner.

I wasn't crazy about it at first but when I put it on I fell in love!! It is so cute.

There was something about this mod dress that just ached to be tried on. It was a bit small for me but I like the collar and bow detail.

This was my favorite dress to try on. I love it. I was also going for a Kinder-whore look here. It is really flattering on me and I just might buy it.

Nathan liked the messy pig tails.

all clothing and accessories from Vintage House
located at 628 S. St. Mary's Street

This Place Is A Dead Zone

2010-04-21T16:51:00.000-07:00

Hello Readers!
yep...all 39 of you. Hahhaha.
I'm sure there are a few more readers or way less actually.
So not very much updating since that last post, huh?
Well I'm busy with school and work. Yes, I work.
I've actually been working at a vintage store in San Antonio called Vintage House.
They have been open for a year and a half now and it has been really fun working here.
I do a little bit of everything.
I'm actually blogging from work right now.
And I think the store is starting their own blog soon so I will most likely be helping them with that too.

I have also been spending time with Nathan, the love of my life.
The above picture was taken at Vintage House where he spent the day keeping me company at work.

Currently Listening to: Yeah Yeah Yeahs "Man"
didn't know this song applied to me till now
"I gotta man that makes me wanna KILL!!"
and that he does.

I'm perfectly fine adapting to my "Dark Hippie" lifestyle.
urb dictionary defn: a person who follows both the Gothic scene and the neo-Hippie movement. People in it believe in the neohippie ideology,peace,love ect. but they also have the dark out look of the goths. death,vampires ect.

(images via Sisters of the Black Moon, Sun In Scorpio, and Cosmic Dust tumblrs)
http://sistersoftheblackmoon.tumblr.com/
http://cosmic-dust.tumblr.com/

I Love You But I've Chosen Darkness

2010-04-04T22:35:00.000-07:00

An impromptu photo shoot i did with Abe and Javi as photographers...oh yeah Ryan was there too. This is how I spent my Easter holiday, rolling around in a field of flowers while three presumably gay men took photos of me and called me "mystical".

I hope this will quench your insatiable thirst for my blog, readers...if only for a little while.

I also feel as though this picture post is a sequel to my previous "Dark Flower Child" post. What are your thoughts on that?

oh and p.s. I'm not wearing a wig.

Darker My Love

2010-03-29T21:25:00.000-07:00

today was a thrifting day...as well as a school day, unfortunately.
abe, frank, and i went hunting for souls to join our cult but ended up just finding useless things at the Goodwill outlet.
We also made a trip to our local beauty supply store looking for some more bleach to feed our addiction as well as toner/mixer. I plan on going a nice shade of cotton candy pink and i need a toner/mixer to get the right color.

You never know what you'll find at the Goodwill Outlet. Frank found some bloody tissues in the parking lot outside. Naturally he collected the blood to use for the dark arts. He is a seventh level Pagan Witch...but only a level two vegan :/

We found docs for days but didn't buy a single pair.

abe took this photo of us lounging in the dressing room, summoning shadow demons and upsetting the Mexican men who walked by.

I'm practicing my look for the Real World casting call. I'm going to be the overweight witch who pisses everyone in the house off by using the ouija board in the confessional and leaving crystals in the hot tub!

She Wrote Me Letters So I Wrote This Song

2010-03-15T22:07:00.000-07:00

y'know what readers??
your lack of comments may have something to do with my lack of posts!!!
juss kidding.
wow. 32 followers!
i'm shocked. when did that happen?
Well I guess I should welcome my new readers:

Welcome everyone. Have fun reading about my mundane fashion choices and creepy obsession with Savage Garden.

My lack of posting is simply due to my lack of material. Sadly.
I have news though!!!
I started attending college again. It's community college but it's really fast paced and foreign.
But the campus is chill so no big deal.

I also got a financial aid return check for the first time EVER. It is seriously sweet and it has come in handy. This means lots and lots of thrifting, trips to MAC, getting the sweetest hat from American Apparel, and 2 pairs of Celeste Stein tights that I have been pining for. Oh and some other junk on ebay I've been meaning to buy.
All of which I will post pics of as soon as I stop being lazy.

This post is more for updates and less about cool stuff. Sorry. I just didn't want anyone to think I wasn't posting anymore.
I read lots of blogs but fail to update my own. lame, i know.

a couple photos to keep you interested.

met sean lennon during SXSW 2010

great polaroid of frank, me, and sarah by the amateur alyssa (lol)

frank and i witching out on 6th street- photo cred: ari

Dark Flower Child

2010-02-02T04:16:00.000-08:00

I've been meaning to post this stuff for a while now...I was going to add more to the post but I think the message is loud and clear.

Hair Color: Bleach Black

2010-01-20T21:13:00.000-08:00

Enid Coleslaw and that raptor t-shirt are part of the reason for my thrift store addiction.

i would wear these heels all day everyday...even to the grocery store.

First Born Unicorn

2009-12-30T18:15:00.000-08:00

it is only when you have lost something that you realize how much you take for granted.

photo of nate taken by me!

the new year is upon us and one whole decade is now behind us.
i'm now 21 years of age and i have yet to take a legal drink. i'd like it to keep it that way.
christmas was pretty rad...i got lots of neat presents. like a Harold and Maude book, Slim Twig's CD Contempt!, The Tracey Fragments...etc. etc.
oh and for my birthday i got an awesome Lisa Frank jacket that Frank found in Arizona...i will have to photograph it soon.
a sweet i-zone polaroid camera with film
a cute fred perry polo
a lovely fur caplet that was given to me by my mum. the very caplet i wanted but could not afford.
and javi bought me some cute dresses at the urban outfitters sale! cool.

i should photograph all that stuff but maybe i should do that at a better time.
right now i'm trying to regain some stolen things of mine :(

Ever since Frank introduced me to the blog Slutever I've been wanting to live in a squat and write a blog about my exploits...but i already live pretty much rent free and my dad's home is somewhat like a squat so I think it all evens out.

i will continue to live vicariously through other bloggers.

image via fatale femmes

oh and just because you listen to a certain band it doesn't mean that their music is yours...you didn't discover them and you didn't invent the band so just stfu!
...i'm just sayin' I'm tired of all the music elitists.
listen to the jams and SHUT UP!!

photo taken by frank isaac

My Best Friend Is A Teenager From Outerspace!!

2009-11-24T23:26:00.000-08:00

this is my photo diary from Monday November 23rd, 2009
frank, abe, and i went thrifting around the south side
we also made a trip to Flipside Records, a bakery, pizza patron, and Wal-Mart

view from inside my blanket

potato hair pin we found at texas thrift SOUTH SIDE!!!

modeling a gorgeous fur caplet
that i didn't get to buy because it was overpriced at $70

frank is actually a grey posing as a nineteen year old...he came to this planet in order to study the human race but got bored and kinda forgot what he was supposed to be doing so instead he just browses thrift shops and collects the weird stuff he finds to take back to his home planet of CumDumpsteria

lookbook rejects!!

pizza party dudez!!! we ate pizza patron that day for like $3

selecting bread at the bakery...people will talk shit to you ANYWHERE!

enjoying the fruits of our labor

Better Late Than Never

2009-11-24T00:58:00.000-08:00

drawn by Nathan Q.

I'm trying to convince Nate to buy me one of these for Christmabirthday.

this is me like everyday!

cyberGoth

2009-11-05T02:10:00.000-08:00

I once fell in love with a boy who looked like Johnny the Homicidal Maniac. Like a human replica of the Jhonen Vazquez character. I miss that boy.

Olle Edvard: some sort of swedish cyber-witch. i love it.
check his blog out!
http://wet.blogg.se/

I'm not as unique as i once felt.
found a girl with a similar name....here's her blog:
http://fashionpeach17.blogspot.com/
and her lookbook: http://lookbook.nu/user/58528-Kataleya-O

here's a polaroid of me and the boy at a party. someone called us a power couple. well i would hope so.

Transparent Fur

2009-10-01T19:17:00.000-07:00

"When I turn twenty-one, I don't want any more of this life. My mother and father will be surprised at the incredible change. It will impress them more when such a fuck-up like me turns good than if I had been a good [daughter] all along. All the past years I will think of as one big vacation. At least it wasn't as boring as schoolwork. All my bad behavior I'm going to throw away to pay my debt. I will change when everybody expects it the least."

the most productive thing i did all year was grow my hair out

i started a slim twig fanclub http://www.myspace.com/8399398

he is one of the best creatures i have ever known

this is what technology has done to us

this guy seriously puts a smile on my face whenever i am down

i need more god in my life

A Sort of Rockabilly Romance

2009-09-21T22:19:00.000-07:00

24 Hour Party People

2009-09-12T21:35:00.001-07:00

If You're Young and Sexy

2009-09-09T23:55:00.000-07:00

I'm in a rather creative mood at the moment.
I'm also in a shopping mood which is not good news to my bank account.

I've been spending my endless summer catching up with my San Antonio friends and visiting my Austin friends as much as possible.

I've also been spending incredible amounts of time with my beau, Nathan.
He's probably the reason I've been feelin' crafty. I'm really into the Psychobilly/Rockabilly music that he makes.

We've been talking about putting together a music video for this one song he has called "Death & Beauty".

The song is about a psycho killer who cuts young girls apart and stitches them together to make the girl of his dreams.

If that interests you then check out his music myspace:
myspace.com/psychodaddyrock

The music video is going to be pretty sexy and gorey. We need some lovely ladies to dress up like dolls and cut apart. So if you're interested in taking part in this GrindHouse-esque horror music video then let me know.

In other news....Halloween will be here before you know it and EVERYONE needs a costume!!!
I have had a few people ask me to help them put something together and I got a little idea.
Custom Costumes for a low price....or at least a lower price than renting them from a costume shop.

I will make you virtually any costume you want (within reason) for a price ofcourse...and have it to you within a week. But that does not mean I will make a bunch of costumes the week before Halloween!! You have to order them now so that we have enough time to get all the materials and have a few fittings.

Call me up if you wanna MAKE something!

Brand New Lover

2009-08-26T00:39:00.001-07:00

I found someone who will lay me down in green pastures. I'm no longer a bachelor for life!

His name is Nathan. He's 18. He makes music. And he's had my heart for the last 3 years...except he didn't know it until last month.

This is my first relationship in four years and I'm really happy.

Even though things seem to be crumbling around me, at the same time I feel like things are falling into place.

Jethro Cave Is The New Black

2009-07-21T00:31:00.000-07:00

I know my blog is not the first to rave about Nick Cave's model son but I'm sure I won't be the last.
He is worth more than a "Future Husband" post. This kid is perhaps one of the most extraordinary male models of his time. To me at least.

It's not just the amazing hair. It's not just the haunting gaze. It's not just the boyish pout. It's just not the rock 'n' roll pedigree.

It's the androgyny. It's the versatility. It's the mystery in his look.

Solid Gold

2009-06-18T18:30:00.000-07:00

I would embed the video if I could but it's worth the time to watch anyway.

I want to hear music that's somewhere between christian-punk and electro-dance with a little queercore thrown in for good measure.

Does anybody know where I can find a band like that?

Or music somewhere in that genre?

Brian Lichtenberg is my dream designer-bff.

I Never Do These But...

2009-06-15T02:41:00.000-07:00

Hello my name is?
Kat

Have you kissed someone with braces?
Yes

If you could change your eye color what would it be?
Grey

What is the wallpaper on your phone?
T-mobile Default

Have you ever had a surprise birthday party?
no but i wish i did :/

When is the last time you cried?
today when i saw an amazing youtube video

Who was the last person that made you laugh?
frank

Do you dance in the car?
yez...i'll dance anywhere!

How did you get your last bruise?
i don't know but thats probably the scariest part.

Do you have a hard time admitting you’re wrong?
yeah...i do.

Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning?
night. i'm a vampire.

When is the last time you had pizza?
today! it was awesome.

If you had the chance to have your face put on a quarter, would you?
only if i was making a really crazy face.

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone’s life?
i hope only for the better

What is the last movie you saw in a theater?
i don't see too many...i'm gonna say slum dog millionaire

Do you remember the name of your first school you ever went to?
Burleson

Ever found more than a dollar in a random place?
yeah. found like $30 stashed in my room. but not by me.

Last time you smiled?
i smiled when i read the question.

Would life be the same without alcohol?
I don't know how to answer that question with out it sounding negative.

Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else?
for sure.

Are you easily scared by horror/ thriller films?
they are not my favorite type of films

Do you sleep on your stomach?
yes. that is my go to position for sleep.

Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?
all the time, every time.

Is there anybody you just wish would fall off the planet?
yep. But there are too many to name.

Were you single on your last birthday?
I'm perpetually single.

Are you wearing a sports shirt?
ew! no!

Have you ever crawled through a window?
yes. it was to a laundry room on campus.

Do you wear shoes in your house or take them off?
barefoot is the way to be but i'm wearing flippy floppys right now.

When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?
either way. as long as the sound is up I'm fine.

Do you like to watch cartoons?
sweet ones like Invader Zim

Are you short?
Is the sky blue?
Yeah I'm like 5 feet :(

Are you basically a happy person?
for the most part

Are you tired?
tired of you grilling me!

Tomorrow is?
manic monday because I'm going to be with my mom

What were you doing at 12:00 last night?
i think i was at joes, pissing off clyde.

Do you have a girl friend you can tell stuff to and you’re sure they won’t tell?
are you calling me a lesbian bro? nah dude...i got gay guys for all that secret stuff

Would you ever get a tattoo?
probably not. but if the circumstances were right I might consider it.

When was the last time you completely broke down?
like two weeks ago

How many piercings do you have?
ear lobes=2

Do you like the band Taking Back Sunday?
no sir

Are you lying to yourself about something?
yeah but they are just white lies

Which do you like better: lilies or roses?
i can't imagine what a lilly looks like so i will go with roses.

Yellow fingernail polish: yes or no?
not anymore

Who was the first person you talked to this mornin?
probably my girls frank or abe.

What do you hear?
my older bro snoring

Did you have text from anyone when you woke today?
abraham or frank for sure

Do you like pickle’s?
Oh so now you're calling me a ho!? what kinda survey is this?

What does the song lollipop bring to your mind?
sexual inuendos

Who was your last text from?
abe

What time did you go to sleep?
like 2 in the morning

What are you doin right now?
what does it look like?...I'm on tumblr.

What did you cry about last?
a video of this guy dancing at a music festival who inadvertently starts the best dance pary I've ever seen.

What kind of mood are you in?
idk i don't have my mood ring on.

Whens the last time you took a pic?
of myself or something else? uhhh a few days ago of a cool skeleton pendant.

Did you sleep alone last night?
yez and most of the time.

Do you regret anything?
i regret not telling those people i liked how i felt about them. and i regret telling the ones that i did.

Chola Blogging

2009-06-11T01:54:00.000-07:00

So from time to time or whenever the mood strikes, I will be blogging as my alter ego: La Sleepy Girl. LSG is a straight up chola who spends most of her days asleep and most of her nights partying with her chicas. Her chicas happen to be gay cholos.

First Post as La Sleepy Girl (should be read with a chola accent):

Hola bloggerz! I just thought I would introduce myself to y'all. My name is La Sleepy Girl. I'm repping for the West Siiide. Haterz back OFF!
Anywayz.
I wanted to tell y'all a little about me and some of my favorite things.
Ok so first off my favorite Looney Toonz character is Tweety Bird 'coz he's all bad-ass. He don't take crap from no one (just like me). And he got attitude!

My favorite food of all time is Hot Cheetos wit cheese! Mmm dang that's good.
Its even better when you mix it all in the bag like a frito pie.

I'm a real stylish girl, in case you didn't already know. My favorite store to shop at right now is Melrose. Aye Dios Mio, I love like everything in the store. I could even wear the stuff they sell for pregnant girls.

My favorite movies are Scarface (no surpise there), Selena (RIP baby), and the Fast and the Furious because oh my gawd those guys are hot, especially that vin diesel (ay papi). Oh and the cars in that movie are bad ass.

My favorite TV show is the George Lopez show! Hahaha he's sooo funny. Oh my godd he totally tells it like it is in the hood. You 'member!!!

My favorite music is cumbias, reggaeton, and old skool tejano. I love Daddy Yankee and Cumbia Kings and my girl Selena.

Well now that you know stuff about me I hope you will write back to me about you. Don't be shy. Unless your name is La Shy Girl.
Well that's all for now. Imma go redraw my eye brows. I'm looking a little like La Sad Girl.

Selective Reality

2009-06-07T21:25:00.000-07:00

this blog is soooo dry right now.
I really would like to read a blog written by a legit chola. or maybe just a chola inspired blog.

It's probably not a good idea to put your blog address on your resume unless you are applying for a job at another blog.

I've started tumbling. Yes, I now have a tumblr. I don't know if I want anybody to know about it yet. I kind of want to be a ghostwriter. Does anyone remember that TV show from the 90's called Ghostwriter? Hmmm...maybe I dreamed that.

I'm currently inspired by: running away. I would have said runaways but that would have sounded like that band the runaways. I'm inspired by street kids who have run away or been kicked out of their home.

I Want A Boy Who's So Drunk He Doesn't Talk

2009-05-25T23:17:00.000-07:00

Oh My Gawd Shoes!

2009-05-22T00:34:00.000-07:00

I am on a quest for a great pair of shoes.
I want them sharp and black.
I want them with buckles and straps.
I want them studded and spiked.

My current shoe inspirations come from....

Slim Twig

The Horrors

I stumbled upon this great site that carries exactly what I'm looking for.

http://www.underground-cybershop.co.uk/acatalog/winklepicker_boots.html

Here are some of my favorites:

Its OK To Have Scars, They Will Make You Who You Are

2009-05-12T23:22:00.000-07:00

I want to be a flea trainer this summer.

Currently Inspired By:

PSYCHIC CHASMS EP

Jeff Goldblum is rad.

This summer I will be working on a project that is "inspired" by britney. I will explain it all once things have been set in stone.

Deadbeat Summer

2009-05-09T02:09:00.000-07:00

pretty excited for summer to start.

i just gotta finish all this late work.
i'm such a loser.

Anyway, this summer is gonna rock so hard. i can feel it. in my bones.
and if it doesn't, well at least i tried!!!

drum roll please........

those are the only shows i plan to go to as of now but I'm sure there will be a few more in the works.

GET EXCITED! Get Excited!! Get Excited!!

P. Wolf and Telepathe in one summer?! tight. so tight.

here's one for the kiddos. this was taken after the Crystal Castles show. I'm standing next to Alice and probably making an ass out of myself. I looked like a total hooker in those ripped tights. But I mean, c'mon you have to look fierce at a CC show. I looked so silly at the last two I went to.

Schools Out For EVER!!!

2009-05-07T17:38:00.000-07:00

today was my last day of school.
I had my Costume Design final this morning and I am tiiiiired.
I can't believe I pulled 15 watercolor renderings out of my behind!

I'm moving out this weekend and I will be going back to San Antonio.
I really need to relax.

I'm ready for summer. I've been ready.
But I'm going to miss St. Edward's.

All my friends are gemz.

I made a music video for the Brooklyn band Etta Place. It premeired at the Sorin Reel Film Festival but I have yet to upload it to my Youtube channel. So, Charles Rogers if you are reading this...please give me my DVD. And congrats on graduation!

Summer Goals...I haven't made my list of summer goals yet but I think now might be the best time to start a legit Zine. I'll probably need some photographers, writers, and graphic designers. This sounds like a plan to me. Get at me if you want in. Or just send me some of your ideas.

Some interesting web zines:

http://www.myspace.com/thisisitmagazine

http://www.myspace.com/ilovefake

http://www.myspace.com/androgynymagazine

Strange House

2009-04-27T00:41:00.000-07:00

Friday Friday Friday was a blur.
My friends came in from San Antonio. I finished my zine Mystical One. My music video for "In Reverie" was premeired at the Sorin Reel Film Festival and I went to see The Horrors at Emo's.

Did I mention that I went home to San Antonio after the show? Well I did. And nothing really happened except I spent time with a few friends.

Mystical One turned out really well I thought. I want to thank Abraham for lending me the money to produce the copies. I distributed them at the film festival. I'm taking orders so let me know if you want a copy. They are free but I'm charging for postage if I can't hand them to you physically. I might also think about scanning it and posting it somewhere.

I'm still not sure how I feel about my second submission to the Sorin Reel Film Festival. None the less I want to thank everyone who helped me work on it.

Meeting The Horrors and taking pictures with them was surreal. They are so charming in person. They were all very polite and posed for several pictures. All the songs they played were from the new album. We asked them why they didn't play any old stuff and they simply replied, "Because we didn't want to." Faris scolded someone in the crowd for requesting a song, but I thought it was a little funny.

I wasn't too excited to see The Kills perform. They're just not my type of band. So we left after a few of their songs and walked around downtown. It was a bad idea.
I think I almost saw someone die of an overdose. It was a bit scary.

We headed back to Emo's and waited around for the bands to come out and give autographs. We ended up only catching Spider Webb, Coffin Joe, and Faris Badwan. It was fine though. We were all tired and ready to start the drive back to San Antonio.

My favorite moment of the night was taking a group picture with The Horrors and speaking with Rhys. He and Tomethy are my personal favorites.

I just wish we could have danced wildly to songs like "Sheena Is A Parasite" or "Gloves". Maybe one day.

Go Ask Alice

2009-04-13T23:01:00.000-07:00

These pictures speak for themselves.

All photos taken by Frank Allen Isaac on Monday April 13th 2009 in Austin, Texas.

Don't Let It Rot

2009-04-12T17:01:00.000-07:00

Keep San Antonio Lame.

I went home on Wednesday. (missed a show)

Saw my niece for the first time on Thursday. (so precious)

Becca-Bear spent time with Frank and I on Thursday night. (we hatched a plan)

Friday morning found us at a young man's house dropping off a letter and some gushers. (there are so many gems in San Antonio)

Frank and I hit up 3 thrift stores before the sun went down. (we were exhausted)

That night we headed to The Gig to watch Marcus Rubio and the Gospel Choir of Pillows. (possibly one of the best local bands)

Frank, Becca-Bear, and I traveled there together and met up with a young fellow by the name of Nathan. (he's something of a legend)

In the end we all got what we wanted.

You Are Not Alone

2009-04-06T22:33:00.000-07:00

everyone has problems.
and everyone has it hard, especially right now.
you're not the only one.

when you're complaining about how hard your life is, just take a minute to think that someone out there has it harder than you.

I'm just saying, don't take things for granted. Be grateful for all that you have.

In other news I got started on my zine today. Mystical One should be out the same day my music video premieres.

I'm seriously considering submitting a short film to the San Antonio Film Festival.

My etsy shop Knitted Bliss 88 is almost up and running. I have yet to post any items but as soon as I have models and some time to take and upload pictures I will take care of that.

I think song lyrics can save your life. The fact that someone put what you are feeling to music makes you feel as though your life has a soundtrack.

"Come and get me outta this town oh now, come and save me...come and rescue me from this giant hotel full of bones and babies."
- "64 little white things"
Cake Bake Betty

"I heard you crying
Somebody stole my soul
How could I be dying
I turned 20, Five days ago

We're all on the ground,just crying out
Somebody save me please
I won't sit around just thinking about
The troubles that tomorrow brings"

- "Dying to be Alive"
Hanson

Compared to others around me, my life is running quite smooth.

Update Up To Date

2009-04-05T22:15:00.000-07:00

you know that you need to update your blog when your close friends start mentioning to you that "you haven't updated your blog in a while..."

well my computer is on the fritz and I've been so busy with projects at school.
so there isn't much time for updating.
even now i should be preparing for an exam tomorrow instead of blogging.

the last show I went to:

Jason Castro (and Michael Castro) @ Texas A&M College Station

It was a great show! He played songs from Idol as well as his own songs he wrote before he was on AI and then some of his newer songs. He also played a Spanish song for his parents and played his cover of Ray LaMontagne's cover of the Gnarles Barkley song "Crazy".
His birthday was three days before the show so a member of his band brought out a cake and the whole audience sang him Happy Birthday.

His brother Michael was a great opener and had some very entertaining banter.

I also got to talk with my friend Isaac who goes to school at A&M and was the one who bought me my ticket. I had a pretty good seat at the show.
My parents drove me all the way over there and waited in the car. I'm very grateful that my parents put up with this stuff.

Other things I've done in the past week:

Finished my costume sculpture (pictures will be added soon)

Started an Etsy store called Knitted Bliss 88 (which will only sell sweaters)

Started a Slim Twig Fan Club on Myspace

Filmed scenes for a music video I'm making (to be premiered at the Sorin Reel Film Festival)

Learned some new signs in Sign Language Club (more specifically the colors)

Wishlist:

CDG black cardigan with red heart please!

black silk bow tie

Slim Twig Contempt! LP

Polly Pocket Necklace

Good Cape Weather

2009-03-26T23:14:00.000-07:00

I wore my American Apparel cape today. I got some good feedback.
It started out as a rainy/cool day. I felt like a bad ass running across campus in all black with tiny red converse. And a Hooters t-shirt. Don't forget the Hooters t-shirt.
I wear it with a hint of irony.

I think most clothing should be worn ironically. Like those t-shirts with wolves or soaring eagles on them. They are worn because we are making fun of the people who "really" wear them.

This has not been a very productive week. I taught my Presentational Speaking class how to finger knit. And I participated in a play reading.

Today I attended a meeting for a Sign Language club at my school. It was almost as if I was destined to walk down the one hallway that had a sign advertising the event in the building I was in on the day I was in it.
It was a small gathering of sign language enthusiasts. But I thoroughly enjoyed how friendly and welcoming everyone was. I hope the club is very successful.

I feel as though being in the club takes me one step closer to becoming a sign language interpreter at concerts.

I'm starting my own online fan club. I guess I shouldn't tell you who it's for yet since it is not official or anything. But when it's all done and ready I will write a post.

I'm seeing Jason Castro on Saturday at Texas A&M College Station. Here are some Polaroids I took of him that I've been meaning to post.

You're All Talk And No Show

2009-03-23T22:19:00.000-07:00

South by South West 2009 has left me exhausted and without the desire to do my school work. I want to make stuff. But I don't want to do any writing.
Ha!
If I didn't have to do homework I would just do crafts and make videos all day.

I have yet to put together my music video for the Sorin Reel Film Festival. It is sometimes hard to plan and coordinate things like that.
But it will happen.

Upcoming Events:

Saturday March 28th- Jason Castro @ Texas A&M College Station

Monday April 13th- Crystal Castles @ La Zona Rosa

Friday April 24th- The Horrors @ Emo's

I'm not doing the Future Husband post anymore because I ran out of possible husbands.
And I actually managed to meet one more of my Future Husbands this past week.
Can you guess which one?

South by South Wizard: Saturday

2009-03-22T01:15:00.000-07:00

Caught the end of Telepathe's set at Urban outfitters.
They had two dancers performing during there set.

I spotted Carrie Mundane of Cassette Playa dancing near the side of the stage.
After Telepathe's set was over I introduced myself to Carrie. She was so friendly and cool. I told her I was a fan of her clothing line and that she was one of my favorite designers. She told me to send her an e-mail so we could keep in touch.

I walked to Red House Pizzeria and caught Marcus Rubio and the Gospel Choir of Pillows. This was the first time I had seen them perform outside of San Antonio.
I absolutely adored all the songs they played. I also enjoyed how enthusiastic all the band members were.

Then I went to Waterloo Records with Sarah and Sofia. They wanted to see the Bird and the Bee and I wanted a ride.

I ended up walking to the Austin Convention Center and chilling in there. I killed time walking down 6th street and Red River. I was waiting to see Tinted Windows.
They played a free concert at the Bat Bar. The show was thoroughly entertaining. Tall people even moved out of my way so that I could get a better view.
But all I saw was a very sweaty Taylor Hanson. Oh and I little bit of James Iha and Bun E. Carlos. I really like that song "Kind Of A Girl".

I headed over to Beauty Bar and proceeded to wait. I waited for Slim Twig's set. I met two girls waiting outside Beauty Bar that were Slim Twig fans AND from San Antonio!! (small world)

We were able to perfectly hear and see Slim Twig from outside the Beauty Bar. But I still wish I could have been in the club to see his set. It looked pretty epic even from afar.

Then I waited after his set to take a picture of him. We chatted for a bit and then he posed for a Polaroid. My camera failed so I used my digital camera as a backup.

I hope his drive back to Canada goes well.

Sarah and I also said goodbye to our house guests. We had three guys from Brooklyn staying with us. Brian, Bob, and Scott were pretty nice dudes. Maybe our paths will cross again one day.

"I might not have the power of telepathy but I'm gonna be contacting you"
lyrics from "Because We're Dead" by Slow Club

South by South West: Friday

2009-03-21T00:08:00.000-07:00

i had to wake up early.
early bird gets the twig.

i waited for over an hour to see Slim Twig. I wasn't able to get into his first show of sxsw. It was a 21+ gig and required a badge or wristband. I didn't qualify for that show. But I waited and waited and good things come to those who wait. I was able to hear a little of his set and see him through a window. Then he and his band exited the venue and I caught him on the way out. I asked to take a Polaroid with him and he agreed. He also said I might be able to catch his next set. Negatory. That one was open to the public, but also 21+. Some random guy on the street snapped our picture. I thanked him and told him my name before I walked away. He told me his as well (Max).

While I was waiting outside I randomly ran into Paul Griffiths of Baby Cakes clothing.

And then I saw Christopher Drew of NeverShoutNever....again. I asked him if I could take a Polaroid picture of him and he posed for one. Then he gave me a hug and we parted ways. What a sweet boy.

I went into Emo's after that for NO reason.

Then I decided to head over to see his next show. It was at Headhunters at 4pm. I thought that if I went early I might have a better chance of getting in. Nope. I waited around for a while and then walked over to where I saw Max and his buddies standing. I told him that they wouldn't let me in the club. He asked if I had tried the back door. I said no but that I saw them carding. He then asked me if I wanted him to sneak me in. I declined because he had told me previously that he would only be playing two songs at that gig. I told him that I'd much rather see his showcase at Beauty Bar on Saturday. Then I proceeded to ask him any and every question I had on my mind. He was very nice and answered every question I asked. I thanked him and went on my way to Waterloo Records.

I walked from 8th and Red River to North Lamar.

Telepathe played a short set at Waterloo Records.
They were really nice girls. They had on these sweet Cassette Playa t-shirts. I asked them where they got the shirts from and they told me that Carrie Mundane herself gave it to them.

South by South What!? Year 2

2009-03-19T22:14:00.000-07:00

Spring Break is supposed to be relaxing.
Mine is very scheduled and tiring.
Going to bed late.
Waking up early.
Eating when I have time.
Holding when I need to use the restroom.
All to get what I want.

Wednesday was a bit of a let down but the coming days are more promising.
So far I've missed Turbo Fruits twice!!
I have yet to see Telepathe.
I saw Slow Club last night but missed there set at Red House Pizzeria today :(
My friends and I attempted to see a lot of bands but were turned away because we were not of age or didn't want to fork over the money.
When I plan on seeing a show for free I don't intend on paying.

I did pay for my entrance into the American Apparel Flea Market today. It was nuts! There was hipster threads everywhere and it was sooooo hot!
On the bright side they were playing Fever Ray's "When I Grow Up".
I got some good deals. I bought a t-shirt that changes color with my body heat for $5 and a black fleece cape for $15.
I didn't want to spend more than $20 on clothes this week and I stayed at my limit.

People we met/saw today:

Slow Club

Le Castle Vania

Kap Bambino

Christofer Drew [NeverShoutNever]

Abe recognized him and prompted regina to get a picture with him.

Johnny Whitney [blood brothers, neon blonde, jaguar love]

We stumbled onto a Jaguar Love show at the back of Beauty Bar. I remembered that Johnny was in the band and we waited to take a Polaroid with him.

I'm tired now. I have my fingers crossed that I will be able to see Slim Twig at least once tomorrow.

Future Husband(s):

Anthony OR Dustin of Best Fwends

photo circa SXSW '08

Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder

2009-03-17T02:32:00.000-07:00

San Antonio will try and crush you. And once you leave you can never return. Things are not the same when you come back.
It makes you realize how good it is to be gone.

Spring Break 2009 is upon us. And by us I mean every school in Austin, Texas.

In a few days I will be attending any free/all ages show I can get in. I only plan to spend money on food and the American Apparel Flea Market that's going on for most of the week.

Updates from me are few and far between. That's because there is not much going on.

I spent the weekend in San Antonio. I attended an event called Luminaria. I hung out with my friends. I thrifted for a second. And I realized that the city that gave birth to me will one day be the city that kills me.

You literally have to fight your way out of San Antonio.

I don't know how I feel about posting my SXSW schedule on here. Does anyone really care what shows I'm going to attend?
Also...I don't want to set anything in stone. I might not go to some of the things I plan on attending. Shit happens.

What I did today: Sold clothes at Buffalo Exchange, Bought a kite that looks like an eagle, made rice crispy treats, baked a pizza, spent time with Kelsey, shared laughs with Andrew and Sabra, bought a new cat vest!!!

Future Husband:

Tim Roth as Mr. Orange in Reservoir Dogs.
I like his fake accent. He fooled me.
I've seen his new TV show Lie To Me. I like it!

Affirmation

2009-03-09T18:10:00.000-07:00

recent picture of myself outside of the Blanton on the UT campus.

I might be in San Antonio this weekend.

School is....getting expensive!
I still don't know if I will continue my education at St. Edwards.

This week couldn't get any longer. Daylight savings time didn't help one bit.

"I'm trying to connect to you."
I don't know how much I should read into messages I get from the dead. Note to self: don't go looking through your old myspace messages unless you want to open wounds.

I wish I knew how to write songs because then I would be able to get out all this lyrical aggression. Blogging isn't the right outlet for poetry. At least for me.

I've been documenting the dreams that I remember. Pretty good research for the dream inspired short film I plan to make. You could say it's in pre-production right now.

I have to make a sculpture over spring break. It is supposed to be inspired by Baroque/Rococo. I will post process shots when I get things started.

I have deactivated my Facebook and joined Twitter. Sometimes you have to succumb to the lesser of two evils. Also I'm not that into stalking anymore.

Future Husband:
"I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality."

Lance Bass

the picture is a bit old school but I liked him before he buffed up, bleached his teeth, tanned way too much, and let his natural hair color show.

I'm Learning To Hunt For You

2009-03-06T18:41:00.000-08:00

I'm adding to my cat vest collection all the time:

Recent purchase comes from the Texas Thrift Store right next to St. Edwards.

I also found the CD case to Affirmation. I just had a feeling that I would find that CD at a thrift store. Too bad the actual CD wasn't in there. I might have bought it. But it's okay because I bought a used one on eBay already.

So next week my school is doing a screening of The Labyrinth. I'm not a fan of this movie but only because I've never seen it. But I think I will attend mainly because they are also having a Bowie look-alike contest!!! I'll be there with glitter on.

Future Husband:

Bowie....naturally.
His androgynous style has always appealed to me. But when he played an alien in "The Man Who Fell To Earth" I knew I had to marry this beautiful creature.

You're The Best Thing About Me

2009-03-03T14:22:00.000-08:00

Getting packages in the mail is like opening presents on Christmas. I received 2 Savage Garden CD's, a Savage Garden concert DVD, and a sweet birthday present for my brother yesterday.

Spring Break is coming soon and that means South by South West. I'm going to be making my free show schedule soon. I'm a little disappointed that so many of the free shows are 21+ but I'm sure I can find enough all ages shows to attend.

Here are a few bands/artists I would like to see during SXSW:

Slim Twig

Tinted Windows

Turbo Fruits

Natalie Portman's Shaved Head

Telepathe

Mika Miko

Future Husband:

Jason Castro

I guess everyone could see this one coming from a mile away.
He reached #4 on last season's American Idol. And now he's about to release his first album!!! He's going to be performing at Texas A&M College Station at the end of this month and I can't wait to buy my ticket.
I've had the pleasure of seeing him perform live three times and formally meeting him once. I wish I had uploaded the Polaroid pictures I've taken of him but I have yet to scan them.
Well I guess I'll have to do a post with nothing but scanned Polaroids!

It's The Only Thing That Makes You Good

2009-03-02T12:54:00.000-08:00

I spent the weekend in San Antonio. I hung out with my friends and spent time with family. It was nice. The best part though was the thrift shopping.

Here are some of the things I found at Goodwill:

Robby made this. He let me have it when I stayed the night at his house. I'm going to turn it into a pin.

Future Husband:

Michael Pitt as Tommy Gnosis in Hedwig and the Angry Inch.
I love when he sings his version of "Wicked Little Town".

I think I'm done with the Future Husband posts. I've finally run out. I have only one left.

I'm Not Sick But I'm Not Well

2009-02-24T01:24:00.000-08:00

(photo taken by me when I pretend to be a photographer 2009)

I'm 100% again.
I'm not sneezy-watery eyes-runny nosed anymore. Yes!
I woke up this morning and I was feeling fine.
Actually I went to sleep this morning (er was it yesterday) and woke up before class started and I was a-okay.

I was healthy enough to judge the ImprovOFF. I don't have much to say about it. Let's just say we need to work on our Improv skills as a university. Improv does not mean getting up on stage and yelling, doing slapstick, or making offensive gestures. I wasn't offended by any of the performances but I wasn't amused.
Being a judge was a lot harder than I thought. There was a lot of Math involved.

Then I went to my friend Andrew's play reading. I am assistant directing it. Or am I Assistant to the Director? Ah who knows! Alls I know is I'm getting my name on a program.

In more Hanson related news, Taylor Hanson has a side project. :O
Yeah....I'm as shocked as you are. And if you don't know who Taylor Hanson is then what are you even doing reading this blog?!
Well he's in a band with the guitarist from Smashing Pumpkins, that dude from Fountains of Wayne, and the drummer from Cheap Trick. Yeah....that's what I said. :O
His band is called Tinted Windows.

It looks pretty legit. Yet the Hanson fan in me (the Fanson if you will) wants to cry out blasphemy! It sounds like a different band yet all I can hear is Taylor, so I think Hanson. But it's not....anyway they will be unveiling themselves during none other than South by South West, the music festival that started Hanson. How ironic. I will try and attend even though they will only be performing at an official showcase and the venue is 21+.
I want to try and recreate this rare moment in history where I met my idol of over 10 years.
This photo was taken last year at SXSW and I was 19 years old. The only other time I was that happy was when I met Jason Castro. Ahhh the memories...

Have a listen to Tinted Windows and tell me what you think.

Future Husband:

Anderson Cooper
Why not?
Everyone loves the Silver Fox...

And if all the world was perfect, I would only ever want to see your scars

2009-02-21T22:40:00.000-08:00

the japanese know how to pack a cute lunch!

Still sick. What's new?
Nothing.

I read the book The Doctor's Wife for my Japanese Women's Literature class. It was a good read. Hard to put down and I recommend it.
I'm currently reading Masks for the same class. It's a little harder to read but kinda interesting.
The Japanese culture is very mystical as a whole.
I quite enjoy Stephen Colbert's take on the Shinto religion. He likens it to that of Pokemon.
I'm just going to put this out there...If I were a Pokemon I would be Snorlax...or Gloom.
Especially right now.

I've also been reading Stephen Colbert's book I Am America (And So Can You). It's hilarious.

I have to give an informative speech in my Presentational Speaking class on Monday. I think I'm going to inform my class on Chip-tune music. I think it's going to be an interesting subject to give a speech on. We'll see how that one goes.

I have also agreed to be a judge at my school's improv comedy night on Monday. I hope I'm well enough by then because I don't want to be all "Paula Abdul" up there, slurring my speech and drooling.

In more hair related news, I will be getting a trim this week. My hair has grown out to a disgusting length and needs to be tamed. I don't really have a style in mind, I just need it out of my face.

I started watching this season's Amazing Race because Mike White and his father Mel are on the show. They are father and son who are both writers and Gay. I thought Mike White was Bi but on the show he clearly states that he is Gay. His father Mel is also a pastor for a GLBTQ church! I'm also rooting for Team Luke and Margie. Luke is deaf and his mother, Margie, is his translator. The best moment of the first episode for me was when the show's host signed to Luke and Margie that they were in 1st place for that part of the competition!!!

Future Husband:

James Spader
This man only gets hotter with age.

He was amazing in The Secretary!

Come And Get Me Outta This Town Oh Now, Come And Save Me

2009-02-20T22:09:00.000-08:00

I have always been and will always be inspired by POGS.

I hate shopping malls.
I had to be in one today and it was terrible.
On top of that I'm still very sick.

I've created a new blog. It's not for people to read.
It is a place where I can save my research material that I have to gather for a class.
Feel free to look at it when I have some things on there but it really won't mean anything to you if you haven't seen or read The Pajama Game.

All Homework, All Weekend = Gross.

I am annoyed by all this talk of Fashion Week. Since when does EVERYBODY and their mom care about fashion and style?! I mean c'mon. It seems that everyone theses days wants to be a fashion designer or stylist. It's a lot harder than it looks by the way. I know shows like Project Runway make it all seem so easy but it's not American Idol people. You can't just sew a bunch of fabric together, put it on your anorexic friend, take a bunch of "avant garde" pictures, and call yourself a designer.

It would be the same thing as snapping a bunch of pictures with your digital camera and calling yourself a photographer.

wtf?! c'mon!

Anyway...on with my rant. Maybe I'm just really tired of reading people's reviews of Fashion Week and what designers sent down the runways. Maybe I'm annoyed because it's not even about the clothes anymore. It's about who's wearing them, and who's at the show, and who's at the after party, and who's the Dj. Some designers are celebrities, and rightfully so, but it has recently become trendy to want to work in the fashion industry.

I guess it's all these reality shows on TV that give people the impression they can just show up and give the camera some attitude and you'll be successful.

When did we all forget about hard work?

I just want to scream at those magazines and blogs, "Don't Tell Me What To Wear!!"

Here's another old photo of myself that I never published anywhere.
My hair is quite long and I'm wearing my old cat eye glasses and a mars volta t-shirt.
In the background you can see a poster that reads: Carol never wore her safety glasses. Now she doesn't need to. I'm going to estimate my age at 16 or 17 years old.

Future Husband:

Duckie fromt he movie Pretty In Pink
I wonder if this is how real teenagers dressed in the 80's or is this how they wanted us to remember the eighties?

I'm Not Where I Want to Be

2009-02-19T20:16:00.000-08:00

I'm sick :(
I think it might be allergies.
My whole face hurts and feels stuffed.

I bought Savage Garden's CD "Affirmation" on eBay today for under $3. It made my day a little better.

I read a few articles about Crystal Castles and some interviews with Alice Glass the other day. Some things she said really stuck with me. She said that if people didn't spend so much money on clothes and just made what they had work, then they would look a lot better. She also confessed to wearing her grandmother's hand me down clothes and stuff from used clothing warehouses.
It definitely made me think twice about all the clothing purchases I've made and how much money I wasted on clothes I hardly ever wear.

I've already decided that I'm going to save a lot of my clothing to give to my future children or use it as part of my personal costume stock.

Fashion is cyclical so anything that is in style now is bound to be fashionable in the future.

this is a really old picture of me taken by my friend frank
i never posted this anywhere but I think now is a good time
judging from my haircut and glasses I was 17 or 18 years old

Future Husband:

Ville Valo
Lead singer of Finnish rock band HIM
I love his voice and his style.
I could learn to get over the chain-smoking and constant drinking.

I want to thank everyone who reads this blog and leaves comments.
You make my day better.

Never Sleep...You're Just Giving In

2009-02-18T17:20:00.000-08:00

One of the best music videos I've seen in a long time.
Fever Ray "When I Grow Up" (the singer is Karin from The Knife)

Favorite Crystal Castles song:
"Tell Me What To Swallow"

I've been looking at music videos a lot more analytically now since I will be directing one soon. I would love to make more than one video but I don't think time permits.

Future Husband:

Stefan Olsdal of Placebo
I fell in love with him when I saw Placebo on the Projekt Revolution Tour.
I know he's not into girls but I think it's safe to say that I have a special place in my heart for the gays.

Creepin' Up On You

2009-02-17T23:49:00.000-08:00

The Horrors
April 24th, 2009 @ Emo's in Austin, Texas

I'm there.

I just bought this awesome Savage Garden concert DVD on eBay!!!

Future Husband:

Nick Cave
With haunting good looks and songs filled with macabre and romance, who wouldn't want to marry him?
He's also an Aussie like Darren and Daniel of Savage Garden!

If you need to crash then crash and burn you're not alone

2009-02-16T14:37:00.000-08:00

Crystal Castles anyone?

photo taken by me during SXSW '08
April 13th La Zona Rosa Austin, Texas
I bought my ticket yesterday as soon as I found out.

Recent thrift purchases:

2 Dior V-neck sweatshirts

Huge lot of yarn for only $10

Black Net Shirt

Mustard V-neck Sweatshirt

3-D Dreamcatcher

I decided that the only way I could wear this cotton candy pink Dior sweater was with a Fruits/Harajuku outfit. I threw this look together with stuff in my closet that I never wear.
I don't think anyone could take me seriously looking like this so maybe this style isn't for me.

heart glasses: gift from bekah
pink Dior sweater: thrifted
ice cream necklace: self-made
fur koala face purse: borrowed from my aunt
plastic strawberry purse: flea market
polka dot minnie mouse skirt: costume shop

Future Husband:

Jack White of The White Stripes

"let's get married in a big cathedral by a priest if I'm the one that you love the most you could say I do at least"
-Hotel Yorba

A Picture Is Worth A Thousand Words

2009-02-14T00:06:00.000-08:00

self portrait

gift from sarah

gift from rebecca and sonny

my drawing of darren hayes

shoe project

LSDj was a gift from Jen & Tomas

photo taken by me

a valentine's gift from my parents

Future Husband:

Matthew Followill (Kings of Leon)

Myself Is So Bad Ass Myself Is So Good

2009-02-09T21:13:00.000-08:00

I have been sucked into this internet world.
I have become a digital version of myself.

This is a Mii I made of myself on Marg's old-roommate's Wii.
I had more fun making the Mii than playing the video game.

I have been spending wayyyy too many hours in front of my laptop watching videos on youtube, blogging, reading blogs, searching for weird stuff on eBay, and attempting homework.

Recently I've become very inspired by the Australian pop/rock duo Savage Garden. I really can't explain why or how but it just happened. And now I will start a quest to find both of their CD's at the thrift store. I know I've come across at least one of their CD's while thrifting. I also hope to find a Savage Garden t-shirt as well. That would be ultimate! Oh and I plan on documenting this quest.

If you don't believe in their awesomeness then check out this video for the 90's love song "To the Moon and Back". This is also my favorite of the 3 versions there are of this video.

Take note of the rad outfits and cheesy special effects in the video. Also the lead singer gets a little too dramatic with his hand gestures. But besides all that I adore the video and the song.

How did my day go?
Well I pretty much didn't have any class, I played with my friend Candy's chinchilla, met with my Entrepreneurship group, attended open mic night, and had a delicious dinner. Pretty good day if you ask me. It could have been wayyyy worse.

Future Husband:

Jemaine Clement from Flight of the Conchords
Eagle v.s. Shark would have been way better if it came out before Napoleon Dynamite.

Your Dreams And Your Hopeless Hair

2009-02-08T22:27:00.000-08:00

I was watching the music video for Savage Garden's song "Crash 'n' Burn" and I noticed that at the end of the song Darren signs the lyrics instead of singing them, then the words "Communicate Any Way Any How" appear on the screen. I thought it was a really cool message he was sending.

Then I thought it would be really cool to become a sign language interpreter at concerts.

So today while I was running errands at the grocery store I thought to myself "how cool would it be if I heard a Savage Garden song on the speaker system" and sure enough "The Animal Song" came on. I started smiling because I couldn't believe the coincidence.
As I was exiting the grocery store I saw a couple communicating with each other through sign language. I stared at them for a bit just to make sure I understood what they were doing.

I took these coincidences as a sign.

My hair is getting longer and longer. I still have not cut it and maybe I should.
I'm trying to get back to my original hair do' from childhood. Here is my hair inspiration!

It's kind of ridiculous right?!

Future Husband:

Slim Twig as "Billy Zero" in The Tracey Fragments
Wasn't he just a little asshole in that movie.
I would marry the Billy Zero that existed in Tracey's mind :)
He was this totally awesome guy who becomes her savior and then when she really gets with him he's a total douche. Ugh! I know how that feels.

I Believe That God Does Not Endorse TV Evangelists

2009-02-07T21:48:00.000-08:00

I recently bought my brother this button:

So he can get extra nerd points at the premiere of Watchmen.

And I'm bidding on a birthday present for him as we blog.
If you want to see what it looks like just google "Jabba Glob" and you will find out for yourself.
I was inspired to buy this present whilst reading MCR's blog. I love how oftend it is updated.
Or maybe I just love updated blogs.

I also recently had an idea for vlogging for a post instead of writing.
Maybe a video would be a really cool change of pace.

I've recently been inspired by the gay/lesbian/transgender/queer culture. Frank introduced me to the band Cocorosie and I was impressed with there mystical and androgynous style.
I've also been watching a lot of youtube videos of trannies and funny gay boys (Britney Houston, Tyler Oakley). And while browsing blogs I "stumbled" upon East Village Boys. The site is part homo-erotic photography and part artsy news blog. Very cute and very inspiring.

I'm still really into finding cool Christian music. Sarah showed me this song by Closer 2 Closure called "Rhyme or Reason". Another song by the same singer (Kellin Quinn) is called "Jesus in the Southern Sky". They are both really really beautiful and inspiring songs. Check them out if you're into that stuff.

I think it's safe to say that I am tired of the generic vintage clothing websites on Ebay. They only cater to girls of the same size and shape. And all the models look like they work at Urban Outfitters or Buffalo Exchange. The clothes are all too overpriced and very cliche'. What they are selling you is the "look" and not the actual clothing. You have to go out and buy all the accessories just to get what you paid for.

I'm trying to open my own online store soon and I'm definitely taking notes on what not to do.

Style Icon:

Diva Dompe
She's in the band BlackBlack.
She has some of the best stage outfits and hair.
And she's a very lovely mystical being.

Future Husband:

Mike White
He wrote and directed "Year of the Dog".
He also wrote "The Good Girl" and "Chuck and Buck".
I think he's just awesome.

If You Became Deaf I Would Learn Sign Language For You

2009-02-06T22:47:00.000-08:00

Future Husbands:

Darren and Daniel of Savage Garden
But they are both married.
Not to each other.
Darren has a husband and Daniel has a wife.

We Are In Our Purest Forms

2009-02-05T23:12:00.001-08:00

Today was a good day.
"they exist to give you something to regret, ill give them that."

I presented my shoe project in my Costume Design class this afternoon and it went well :)
I didn't think I would get such good feedback.
Today I was working on a neck ruff for the play Cyrano.
I hope to have it finished soon.

I have noticed that a lot of people are really into the mystical, majestic, and magical type of clothing lately. I have seen lots of American Indian inspired outfits and t-shirts around. Also a lot of natural and new age jewelry. Could this mystical thing be catching on?
I think so.

I don't know how i feel about the "25 Random Things About Me" note on Facebook. I am divided. I don't know if I hate the idea or if I hate the idea because everyone else is doing it.
And because NY Times wrote an article about it.
I just don't think I would be writing these things for the right reasons. I would be writing stuff to try and impress my friends on Facebook. And people already know a whole bunch of random stuff about me.

Things I want to do soon: photo shoot with Jen/Rebecca/Ingrid, create a zine, hand-made valentines day cards, knit something worthwhile, make a t-shirt of myself, self portraits, add to my youtube channel, general crafting, add to my online shop, etc.

Future Husband:

Giovanni Ribisi

always and forever in any movie or tv show anytime anywhere

Make Time Each Day To Pray

2009-02-03T20:56:00.000-08:00

i miss you old friend... i can't wait to hear good things from you.

you know that feeling you get when you fall asleep in the middle of the day and you wake up and it's night already and you feel like you just wasted the WHOLE day?!!
yeah i got that.
the only way to redeem yourself is to get out of bed and do two nights worth of homework in one night.

I made a shoe for my Costume Design recently. It's made of foamy clay and looks like a jaw bone with teeth and a chicken bone heel. I'm not too proud of it. I imagined it would be a lot cooler.

i have never wanted to live in california as much as i do now. or as much as i will when coachella rolls around. this years lineup is pretty epic. it's better than last years ACL and probably this years SXSW combined.

i went out to a party this weekend. it was weird and so uncommon of me. so much so that people were surprised to actually see me there. it was a birthday party for my friend kenny. it was also civil war themed. possibly one of the coolest themed parties recently. i had a decent sober time.

I've been learning to knit recently. Just the other day I bought a proper pair of knitting needles and some brightly colored yarn. I tried to find good yarn at the thrift store but I wasn't about buying for color over texture. And I thought about unraveling a sweater with good yarn but that takes time and I wouldn't want to ruin a perfectly good sweater to make something dumb like a plain scarf. And a beginner's scarf at that.

I wish I had some cool yarn like this.

I don't want to knit lame things like shawls and blankets....unless they are rad of course.
My knitting hero is Twinkie Chan. She makes the most awesome knit/crochet accessories.

www.twinkiechan.com

Future Husband:

ok so if i were a tranny...i'd marry Jake Shears of Scissor Sisters
there are a lot of gay or questionable men on my list of "future husbands". i have no other way to explain that except that i just really like gay guys!!
oh and by the way i'd be a voodoo shaman tranny that wore heels made of bone and hair.
just thought i'd throw that in.

Don't Save Us From The Flames...

2009-01-27T19:57:00.000-08:00

It was bitterly cold today. I had class as usual and went straight back to my apartment for some reading and internet-ing. I really really want to go thrift shopping but alas I must spend my money on more useful things like text books and electricity bills. Ugh! It sucks to be an adult. Or something like it.

My school work is starting to pile up and I'm thinking that maybe I should get a head start on some of it. We don't want a repeat of last semester.
I am my own distraction.

I love catching up with old friends. It makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

Right now I am inspired by Youtube video comments and lint. I started making art out of it.

Future Husband:

Gareth Pugh
He is such an amazing designer.
It wouldn't even matter if I'm not his "type".

Gun Hip Swollen Lip Bottle Sip Yeah I Suck Dick

2009-01-26T22:17:00.000-08:00

The 2nd Annual Sorin Reel Film Festival has been announced and I am oh so excited.
I've been itching to make a new video and now I have a good reason.

Today was an okay day. I went to classes. Presented a speech. Finished unraveling a knitted hat and made two hand woven accessories. I also read a musical called The Pajama Game for my Costume Design class.

It was so foggy today and on my walk home from classes I found a little dead frog.

Am I the only one who's still into Savage Garden?
"Truly Madly Deeply" and "I Knew I Loved You" were probably the truest lyrics I ever heard when I was ten years old. I like watching music videos of the songs I liked as a kid. They are always hilarious...what was I thinking?!

Future Husband:

Adam Beach
I saw the movie "Smoke Signals" when I was younger and totally thought this guy was Kocoum from Pocahontas in human form.
I love the whole Native American look but unfortunately he's less mystical looking now.

Don't Sell Your Shamanic Star Stones on eBay!

2009-01-24T22:52:00.000-08:00

It has been said that I live a charmed life.

I wish I had more time in the morning to get dressed.
I have more top halves than bottom halves.
I washed a bunch of shoes today. And dried them.
Smelly shoes can mess up your whole outfit.

School is going well. It's not getting any cheaper though. My classes ask us to buy a lot of things but I'm reluctant because I have a feeling that we will not really use them.
My Costume Design class requires that I buy watercolor paint but I don't know how to watercolor. So I feel as though a whole other class is needed just for that medium.

I had a bad dream recently. It opened up a lot of wounds. And then I went to someone's Facebook/Myspace profile and hurt myself even more.
I need to stop doing that. Looking at old flame's myspace pages and re-opening scars that are healed. Well maybe they're still scabs.

People are really starting to notice my hair getting longer. I don't know how I feel about that. I kind of want it to be a secret thing. Like my hair has a mind of it's own.

I want to start a correspondence with someone. Things are so easy now with e-mail, text messaging, and social networking sites. I think it is more thoughtful to send someone a letter in the mail than leave a comment on their page.
So I pretty much want a pen pal. I want to write letters to someone regularly like I did in high school. And send mix CD's and magazine clippings and random findings. I don't know who I would write to though. I would like it to be someone that I don't know too well but well enough that I could tell them personal things. Or maybe a complete stranger.
If you are also interested in this I suggest participating in Postcrossing or Post Secret.

Right now I'm really inspired by Wikipedia and Youtube.

Sometimes there are just things and people that are much more important than you. There is something bigger than you.
I have yet to meet my niece Genevive but I wish the best for both of her parents.

Future Husband:

Antony Hegarty
If you've ever heard his voice you would understand.
He is a magical child.

No Man Alive Has Earned The Right To Save Me

2009-01-20T19:33:00.000-08:00

Anything I could have come up with about sleepless nights and wakeless days has already been penned by Oscar Wilde.

He knows how I feel about being a vampire.

"A dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world."
-Oscar Wilde

He also knows a thing or two about fashion. You can agree or disagree with this as much as you want but I wish I lived during a period of anti-fashion like punk or grunge.

"Fashion is a form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to alter it every six months." -Oscar Wilde

Sometimes I wish I were a patron of the arts. Because then I would be able to commission music from some of my favorite bands and performers. Right now I'd really like to listen to an album about "the love of God". And I would want only my favorite vocalists and musicians to be a part of the compilation in some way. I would even commission my favorite graphic artists to do the album art.
But I would come up with the title on my own. I'm thinking "Young and In Love".

Future Husband:

Dan Hunter of PlayRadioPlay!

He's one of the first Straight Edge/Christian performer's who's music I actually enjoy. Too bad he's not Christian anymore. But who am I to judge?

We let our hair grow long and forget all we used to know

2009-01-15T21:52:00.000-08:00

What could be better than one cat vest?
The answer is two. Two cat vests are better than one. Which means that I am the owner of not one but two cat vests. Yes!
I only have Ingrid, Sonny, and Rebecca to thank for this. Thanks guyz.

College is expensive. My books for this semester are so pricey that I contemplated dropping my entrepreneurship class just so I wouldn't have to buy the books.
I'm going to try and find a way around the expensive book prices. A few of my friends have been nice enough to give me the books I will be needing for one of my classes. And the rest I will buy on eBay or Amazon. I have also checked some of the books out from the library.

I thought this was a pretty good post secret card. I laugh every time I see that Romeo + Juliet movie with Claire Daines and Leo.

I bought some socks today from Wal-Mart and I'm pretty excited to wear them. They aren't awesome or anything but sometimes you just crave a pair of thick wooly socks. They were pretty inexpensive as well. I noticed that Wal-Mart is upping their game when it comes to the types of clothing they sell there. They have a few higher priced labels now. Jen and I were very confused whilst shopping today.

Ingrid is totally on board for creating a zine about being mystical and doing How-To's on Youtube. We want to feature others who are mystical as well so contact us if you're interested.
We are going to do a limited run of the zines and have a weekly Youtube segment on what you can do to be more mystical.

American Idol is on again. And I might be slightly addicted. Jason's younger brother Michael is a contestant on the show aaaaand....he's pretty good. I wouldn't go as far as to say he's better than Jason but ... he's good. I will support him as best I can. Because what else is there to do, get high?

I want to start a Hanson cover band. But let's get one thing straight: I'm Taylor.

Future Husband:

Mika
His songs are fun, magical, and a little gay.
I'm not sure if I'm his "type" exactly but I would marry him no matter his "preference".

Play Me Those Songs That Remind You of Me

2009-01-13T21:18:00.000-08:00

Today I attended my Tuesday/Thursday classes. I have Costume Design first and then Entrepreneurship. They seem very intense but I think I'm going to learn a lot in them. And both of my professors seem really cool.

I also watched a couple of Youtube videos on how to knit and hand weave. I didn't have knitting needles so I just attempted hand weaving from what I remembered. It was quite easy and seems like a simple hobby. I'm going to be experimenting with new weaving techniques. I'm also going to try and internet teach myself how to make interesting friendship bracelets. I will try and document my successes and failures. Everyone should learn from their mistakes.

I would like to add more videos to my Youtube channel. But I'm not sure what direction I want it to go. Comedy, Informative, Drama, Music...they all seem great but not very new. I don't want to have one of those channels where they just talk in front of the camera for five minutes. Or they edit it so cleverly that there's like two seconds of them making a weird noise between clips. That's so cliche.

Well I also want to start a zine soon. Anyone interested? I want it to be about all things mystical and awesome. I want to make a zine that I would love to read. Just thought I'd put that out there.

I just want to say thanks to who ever leaves me comments on my blog. It gives me a reason to update. But who am I kidding...I would update it anyway even if Ingrid didn't read it.

Future Husband:

Dev Patel
He was kind of amazing in "Slumdog Millionaire" and more charming with a British accent on the TV show "Skins".
And he totally looks like the dorky Mexican boys I've always gone to school with.

Friendship Bracelets Are Hard To Find

2009-01-12T22:07:00.000-08:00

I have so much to update you on. Today my older brother Albert had his first child! Her name is Genevieve Bustos and I am so excited to meet her. This is not the first time that I am an aunt but it is the first time that my father is a grandfather. How cool is that! We have a new addition to our family and I have officially become the only one of my mom's kids without a child.

Today was my first day back to school. It went well. I like my Monday/Wednesday/Friday classes. They seem very chill. I was so excited to see all my friends again. I forgot how much I missed seeing everyone's face on a daily basis.

I received one of the best gifts recently from my old roommate Ingrid. She gifted me with a beautiful hand made cat vest. I will upload a picture as soon as I wear it. It was such a thoughtful and mystical gift. Thank you Ingrid.

I'm not a furry but I do enjoy wearing this rabbit costume I own. It was free from the costume shop and keeps me warm in the cold months.

I went back to San Antonio this weekend and caught a free show at Music Town. Frank and I went to see Marcus Rubio and the Gospel Choir of Pillows. It was a pretty freaking epic show. There were colorful kazoos being passed out and lots of guitar string breaking. For some reason Frank and I have become addicted to listening to this kid's music. He sings about everything we're thinking about.

I know I said that I've given up on fashion and trends, but what about anti-fashion? What about clothing that you'd never actually wear out in public? What if you find something that totally redeems the world of fashion? I present to you www.starstyling.net.

Future Husband:

Lou Taylor Pucci as Justin Cobb in "Thumbsucker"
He's adorable and soft-spoken in this movie.
He made thumb sucking look cute.

You Accidentally Turned Yourself Into A Vampire

2009-01-08T20:48:00.000-08:00

Bad Days only exist to make sure you appreciate the good days. The good 'ole days. When you could sleep regularly and didn't stutter on every other word. Seriously though, what the heck is up with me?! I get stuck on like every consonant.
It's not making me feel any better.

School is starting in a few days and I'm not too excited about that.

I'm feeling a little frustrated and uninspired at the moment. I'm still working at the costume shop but I will soon have to start looking for a new on campus job. Wish me luck.

I kind of don't care about clothing anymore. I'm very uninterested in fashion and trends at the moment. I'm also very tired of my wardrobe. I would trade all the neat clothing I have right now for a few pairs of really good socks. I feel that my closet lacks good footwear and hosiery. And where did all my outerwear go? I have like zero hoodies. I really don't want to have to go out and buy new ones.

Oh and I'm done selling clothes to places like Buffalo Exchange and Feathers. They can suck it!
I'm taking my goods to the internet. I don't need those places to cheat me out of my money.

Future Husband:

Danny Smith

He stole my heart as goth-boy/werewolf's best friend Merton Dingle on the Fox Family TV show "Big Wolf On Campus".
He's also in this movie I recently bought called "All I Wanna Do". Vincent Kartheiser comes out in it too. (swoon)
He's now the lead singer of a pop-punk band called The City Drive.

Where do all the lovers meet with one another?

2009-01-06T04:41:00.001-08:00

Nathan Vasquez (Be Your Own Pet)
Originally uploaded by shawn brackbill

Future Husband:

Former bassist for the now broken up band Be Your Own Pet. He and I are like the same age and I've met him twice before. He's a really nice guy. I thought he was the cutest member of BYOP. I was really sad when I heard they broke up. Even though they were only around for a few years, they totally inspired me. I even won their banned music video contest for the song "Black Hole". The other guys in the band are pretty cute but I was charmed by Nathan's afro, braces, and bushy eyebrows.

Their song "Bummer Time" pretty much sums up how I feel about them now.

I think about you all week long
my mind constantly singing your theme song
and did you know I looked up to you
I want to be just like you

No one knows how it was for me
No one know what you meant to me
Everyone talks about it like they were there
All this nostalgia but nobody cares
Everyone talks about it like they were there
All this nostalgia but nobody cares

I woke up early just for you
I'd wait all week long for you too
And there you were on my t.v.
I thought you were there just for me

Bummer Time! Bummer Time! Its Bummer Time!

Every time you came I played along
I didn't know that you'd do me, god
And now your back what can I say
I can't even look at you the same way

No one knows how it was for me
No one know what you meant to me
Everyone talks about it like they were there
All this nostalgia but nobody cares
Everyone talks about it like they were there
All this nostalgia but nobody cares

I woke up early just for you
I'd wait all week long for you too
And there you were on my t.v.
I thought you were there just for me

Bummer Time!

Don't Wake Me If I'm Dreaming

2009-01-05T01:11:00.000-08:00

So I tried to reset my body's internal clock today but then I messed up by taking a nap. Gross!
I feel so horrible. I wouldn't feel bad though if there weren't people (friends and family) around to judge me for sleeping in. I'm trying to do research for the new screenplay I'm writing. It's about sleeping but more importantly, dreaming. It's about getting so lost in your dreams that you no longer want to live in the real world.

I'm not especially fond of my dreams but they are sometimes surprisingly good. Like waking up after a good dream. You automatically feel good.
"I like that about you."

I started thinking that the worst thing that could happen to someone is if they died. Now I'm thinking that the worst thing that could happen is not dying. What if you lived forever?
Maybe being a vampire is not all it's cracked up to be.

"You say that you're in prison but I've been trying to break you out....and it seems you don't want to leave."

Future Husband:

Zac Hanson
So I totally wanted to marry him when I was 10.
I think Hanson is the reason I started caring about music.
He might also have been the first musician I ever had a crush on.
He is currently married and has a kid.
He's still pretty amazing though.

Im Completely Alone At A Table of Friends

2009-01-04T13:25:00.000-08:00

So I've recently become nocturnal. I'm a legitimate vampire. I'm also kinda mad at my parents for not investing enough time in me as a child. I could have been so much greater. I guess I'll just have to make up for it when I'm older.

I've been teaching myself how to play chip-tune music on my Gameboy using the LSDJ cartridge my friends bought me for my birthday. (possibly one of the best b-day gifts I've ever received.)
I want to thank them again for being so thoughtful.

School is starting in a week. I hope I can keep my New Year's Resolution. I'm going to try my hardest to focus mainly on school work. School will come first this semester.

Here is a really cute music video I found from a band on Infinity Cat Records:

I'm in the process of writing a short play and a screen play. I would really like to make some more music videos. And I am also gathering stock for my online store Harold8Maude. It's on etsy.com and I hope to have it up before school starts on the 12th of January. Ahhh that's so soon. I'm reseting my internal clock right now so that I may sleep and wake at decent hours.

Please send me good news. I need some real good news right now :}

Future Husband:

Jorma Taccone is one third of The Lonely Island.
He's also a writer on Saturday Night Live.
He also happens to be married.
I think we'd make a hilarious couple!

Go On Take A Swig of That Poison and Like It

2009-01-03T21:40:00.001-08:00

You don't have to ask my permission to drink or abuse substances. I don't have the authority to say NO. I'm not your keeper.

At the age of 20 I find myself longing for the days when I was 15. All the things I wasn't allowed to do at that age I can freely do now but I don't. I don't take advantage of my freedom.
Maybe I miss the oblivion I was living in at fifteen.

I'm in love with: nosebleeds, your threshold of pain, casts, pouty lips, little boy haircuts, braces, slouchy socks, knitted or crocheted clothing, bumble bees, baby name books, funny Bible verses, nerdy glasses, and funny faces

Future Husband:

Christopher Gorham
He was so sweet and nerdy as Henry on Ugly Betty.
I first saw him in the TV show Popular.

I want to thank my friends Jen and Tomas for giving me such a great birthday present. They got their money together and bought me an LSDJ cartridge to make chiptune music with. Thanks guys!!
:D

And Remember The Wolves That You Run With Are Wolves, Don't Forget

2009-01-01T19:36:00.000-08:00

"And if the sun comes up will it tear the skin right off our bones?"
I've been staying up so late that I'm up before the sun. I sleep during the day like a vampire. And wake to greet the night.
The worst kind of vampire. The vampire that doesn't do anything and dresses like a cheap Hot Topic version of themself.
I feel as though I am not supposed to be awake in the early morning hours. I feel like someone will catch me awake and scold me for not sleeping.
I don't know what I'm staying up for. Not for productivity that's for sure.

Why must everyone poison themselves? If you are going to willingly put poison in your body then don't tell me and don't do it around me. You poison the way I look at you as well.
By the way...I am no longer Straight Edge. I realized that I am just a normal human. I just live a clean life like I'm supposed to. Nothing more is needed.

My birthday was nice. We had a lovely little tea party. I got most of the things I wanted for ChristmaBirthday. I found that I love giving presents more than I love receiving them. But it's just a little sad when you don't get any.

New Year's Eve was nice. I spent it in downtown Austin with a few friends. It was nice to finally celebrate the new year right for once. I got to ride in a snake bike! It was the highlight of the night.
My New Year's Resolution last year was to gain more weight. I wanted to look more like my hero Beth Ditto. I think I followed through. This year I think my resolution will be to focus on what is important in life. I want to do better in school and mature more as a person. I will also try and treat my friends better. I want to learn to knit and crochet.

Future Husband:

Paul Rudd
I think my crush on him started when I saw Clueless.
He's that kind of handsome that just sneaks up on you.
Also, he's funny as hell.

When I Grow Up I Want To Be A Ghost

2008-12-22T23:39:00.000-08:00

Holidays are for suckers. But I've spent so much time thinking of the perfect gifts and crafting lovely presents.
I'm just glad I get to see my friends again.
And I'm turning 20 this week! The end of teen age years is upon me.
Baby Jesus' birthday over shadows mine. Thanks a lot bro. I mean, yeah you saved our souls, but what about my b-day?!
I want to celebrate by building forts, having a food fight, and thrashing to my favorite songs.
I want to pour soda on my head and run out into the streets screaming at the top of my lungs.
Don't try and stop me. I will celebrate my rite of passage any way I please.
Then I plan on returning to our lovely capitol, packing my bags, and heading West.

Oh, and by the way I have a new Christmas wish list:

Be good to each other.

Future Husband:

David Wain
It might be hard to see why I'd want to marry him at first but you'd understand why if you ever saw any of his comedy.
He's the funny type of cute.

Like A Year Of Rainy Days

2008-12-16T01:13:00.000-08:00

So this break is upon us.
And who knows if we will ever go back.
I have my partners in crime, for however long they can stand me.
I will try and be more bearable.

Today I received many free clothes from the costume shop I work at.
I'm not sure how much longer I will work there but I will try and get the most out of it.

Road trips...I long for them. I just find peace in traveling.
I don't want to stay in one place if there is nothing in that place for me.

I often ask myself...Who am I writing this for?
The answer is You. I'm writing this because you are reading it.

Anyway...last Saturday I went on a little trip to see Jason Castro. It was pretty awesome.
I have many things to write about the concert but I feel that this is not the right audience.
I can only tell those kinds of things to his fans.

I wish I had a secret language I could write in and You would have to decipher my code.
But all I know is English.

Future Husband:

Gerard Way
Lead Singer of My Chemical Romance
I think he might have saved my life.
He's also married to Lin-Z of Mindless Self Indulgence
but that's a technicality.

My Dream Catcher Couldn't Catch You

2008-12-10T22:34:00.000-08:00

Secret Santa is fun when you're buying things for people in the Costume Shop. You can get them just about anything. For example I bought my person Easy-Mac and Tuna lunches. And someone bought me a dream catcher. I loved my gift and my secret person loved his.
I really want to devote a lot of my free time to making Christmas gifts for my friends and family. I think it's better than buying a whole bunch of junk they will never use.

I saw snow fall for the first time last night. It was magical. It was a real downer to hear people say stuff like, "You've never seen snow before? It's no big deal."
Snow is a big deal. It's a very big deal. I've always wanted to see snow.
It didn't stick to the ground or fall very hard though. Just a few flurries in the air and covering the hoods of cars. I gathered up handfuls of it off the cars and threw snow balls at my roommates. I couldn't get over the idea of throwing snow balls. I hope it snows on my birthday.

School is over. My grades are 50% good, 50% bad. I think I need a seasonal job too pass the time and make some holiday cash.

This Saturday I will be attending a concert in Garland, Texas. I'm going to see Jason Castro and Patti LaBelle. I can hardly wait to see him perform those beautiful songs live. Fingers crossed that I get to meet him again.

Soundtrack this Christmas: Snowed In by Hanson
It's the Christmas album my dad said I'd just get tired of. I never did.

Future Husband:

Conor Oberst
I thought he was the most passionate guy when I was a freshmen in high school. Now I just think he's a little creepy and too angst-ridden for his age. But I'd still marry him if he promised to write a concept album about me.

You're A Moldy Peach But I Bet You Still Taste Good

2008-12-07T01:52:00.000-08:00

Almost over. This semester is almost over. Thank heavens!
Just one final to get over with and I'm golden. Ready for the break to start and ready to start with a clean slate.
Truth be told I've been looking kinda gross lately. I see no reason to keep myself neat and finals week is usually Hell.
I will clean up soon I swear.
Omg, I've just discovered this awesome website via NYLON blog.
It's called Tony B Machine and the website is www.tony-b.org.
There is a little cartoon synth that plays real music and samples and actually records. It's so cute and fun to play with. It makes you feel like a tiny DJ.
I think I will spend my free time mastering the site and making a few mixes in the process.

Is it weird if I repeat a Future Husband because I'm really starting to fall back in love with Vincent Kartheiser. He's just such a convincing actor. He makes you fall in love with everyone of his characters. Or maybe it's just me. But I recently saw some of the movie All I Wanna Do (Strike! or The Hairy Bird) on Youtube. He plays an adorable townie named Snake who is the head of a photography club who specializes in roadkill. Oh and did I mention that Danny Smith comes out in the movie as well. His most notable role was as Merton Dingle in the Fox Family TV show Big Wolf On Campus.
After I saw the best parts of All I Wanna Do, I started to watch clips from Mad Men. I already knew Vincent was on that show and I would watch on occasions. But I think I'm going to have to start watching more often because his character Pete Campbell is becoming three dimensional and they are giving him a lot more camera time. Which is always a good thing if Vincent's involved.

But alas my Future Husband nomination goes to:

Reece Daniel Thompson as Hal Hefner in Rocket Science
He stole my heart as a stuttering kid who joins the debate team.
I feel a kinship to the character of Hal because I also have a stutter.
And I competed in Academic Decathlon in high school and won medals in the Speech category.

I guess that's weird for me to write that I have a stutter. Some people might not notice it but its a medium sized part of who I am. It's not as bad as Hal's in Rocket Science but it gets worse when I'm in San Antonio for some reason. And it is also hard to hide when I talk with my older brother. He seems to bring it out of me. I've never received any speech therapy for it but I've considered it. I see it as something that could only limit me if I were pursuing a career in acting. But at the moment I am not and there fore I have no problem stumbling along in my words.
I really don't like when people point it out though. It's bad enough that I tend to apologize for every word I stutter on.
I guess it's just another one of my quirks!

Second Best Never Felt Better

2008-12-02T23:02:00.001-08:00

I just saw the best video ever. And yes Jason Castro was in it.
You don't have to keep reading but if you want to see an inspiring video then check it out right here.

It's about his religious beliefs and how he made a choice to put God first in his life. He talks about his choice to perform the Leonard Cohen song "Hallelujah" and what it meant to him to be able to praise his king in front of millions watching on TV.

He tells a little story or testimonial if you will about how he came to know Christ and how his goals in life consist of being a loving father, a faithful husband, and a servant to all.

He also mentions that he felt like life wasn't worth living if he wasn't living it for God. I find that very true and I'm glad that I chose to be a fan of his music.

I too want everything I do to be of benefit to the Kingdom of God. I'm sorry if this comes as a shock to anyone or if you think I'm weird for loving God. But I feel that living for other people will only lead to heartbreak and disappointment.

I don't mean to impose my religious beliefs on anyone but I feel that being Christian is a big part of who I am and I never want to be embarrassed about it or feel like I have to hide it from anyone.

School will be over in less than a week. I'm not ready. I'm ready for classes to end but I'm not ready to say goodbye to all my friends. This holiday season will be very different from years past because I'm not going home when school is over.

Shine your light and lead the way.

Future Husband:

Taylor Hanson
Good Christian Boy (check)
Marital Status (Taken)
Good Songwriter (Double-Check)
Wears Chokers (You Better Believe It)

I Don't Want A Lot For Christmas

2008-12-01T23:29:00.000-08:00

Did you know that I turn 20 the day after Christmas? Well it's true. I'm calling it ChristmaBirthday. I'm not asking for much this holiday season but if you're thinking about getting me something here are a few things I wouldn't mind.

Sewing Machine

Jason Castro Poster

Jason Castro Calendar

The poster and the calendar are both $12 and they are available at his online store. http://store.thejasoncastro.com/

Moccasins

American Apparel Braided Belt

The belt cost $11 and I would love any color but I think purple is my power color.

And if you can't think of anything to get me....just get me a gift card to one of my favorite stores
Goodwill (it can be for any amount)

If you're like me and you're on a budget this holiday season then don't feel obligated to "buy" anything for me. I love handmade gifts. They are much more personal and sentimental. You can make me anything you think I would like.

Here are some suggestions:
Handmade moccasins (they sell the kits at Hobby Lobby)
Tote Bag made with funky fabric
Headbands with feathers or gems
Necklaces, bracelets, pins or any accessories (fyi I'm not a fan or expensive jewelry)
Paint or draw a picture of me...it doesn't have to be pretty or cute
Write a Poem or Song for me or about me or inspired by me
Sing me a song that I like or reminds you of me
Collage or scrapbook
Decorate a T-shirt with my favorite things
Stuffed or felted creatures
Create a Doll of me (I've had this as a gift before and I loved it!)

I'm currently putting together gifts for my friends and families so please send me a link to your wish list.

Future Husband:

Michael Cera
Possibly one of the cutest dorks in Hollywood.
I loved him as George-Michael on Arrested Development.
Plus I think we're the same age :D

Teenage Lovers Between The Sheets

2008-11-30T15:30:00.000-08:00

While in San Antonio last week I bought an unusual instrument from the thrift store near my old house. It was Black Friday so everything was 50% off. I purchased a kantele and sheet music for $15. I didn't know what it was at first but my friend and I did some extensive research and we found that it was a Finnish instrument with a mythological background. Pretty cool. I sold it to Rebecca for her band JEN. She really wanted an auto harp because it's huggable but the kantele can totally be hugged.

I've wanted to direct a music video for Jason Castro ever since I won Be Your Own Pet's video contest this past summer. He currently has no "official" music video or album. I just can't see Jason in an expensive music video. He's so modest and humble. I could see something low key and independently directed. And who better to direct his first video than a fan of his music.

If I could choose I would create a video for his new song "Shine Your Light" or "Love Uncompromised"

I've already made up in my mind what this video would look like.

Future Husband:

Bud Cort in the film Harold and Maude.
He has the creepy sort of cuteness in the movie.
I think his character made me fall in love with the macabre.
As a result, I made my parents rent me a hearse for my 17th birthday and for my Prom.

Shine Your Light When Things Start To Look Dim

2008-11-30T00:46:00.000-08:00

When wood is broken it can never be repaired.
You can try and glue the pieces together but they will always be fragmented and weak.
Holidays are wasteful and hurtful. They really test the strength of a family.
I went home to San Antonio for Thanksgiving. I really wanted to go to Tulsa for the weekend.
That didn't happen. But it's okay because I got to spend time with my old friends who I hadn't seen in so long. And I was able to catch some great live music and do a little thrift shopping.
I don't know when I'll be back in San Antonio or if I'll ever go back.
Maybe I'll be back to visit friends. I just feel as though I have no place there.
I can never go back home because home is where the heart is and mine is broken.

Even though I didn't get to attend Jason Castro's concert in Tulsa I was able to see it all happen through a live feed via the internet.
It was magical and he truly inspires. He's inspired me to shine my light as bright as I can.

I've been bewitched by the Polyphonic Spree song "Hold Me Now". Give it a listen and I dare you not to feel good afterward.

Wunderkind of note: Marcus Rubio

I caught his act this week and was very pleased by his performance. I hope to one day direct a music video of his. Or maybe he could score a short film of mine. He really makes the San Antonio music scene look good.
www.myspace.com/marcusrubio

Future Husband:

Stephen Colbert
I first fell for him as Chuck Noblett in Strangers with Candy.
Truth be told he is married, but everyone needs a mistress.
And he still teaches Sunday School every week.

Tuesday Feels Like Friday

2008-11-25T18:44:00.001-08:00

School is out for the holidays. Everyone is going home. Except me.
Or at least I feel that way. I'm not going home until tomorrow night and I feel like everyone is gone. Or out partying. Yes, partying on a Tuesday night. That is college for you.

This semester is paid off. Next semester...well we will see.

And now what you have all been waiting for. The blogosphere premier of my short film trailer "Etienne's Gaining Weight".

My fingers are still crossed that I get to road trip with my friends to Oklahoma this weekend. But if it doesn't happen I will try not to be too sad. Maybe it will give me more time work on that 15-20 page paper I've been putting off all semester. Maybe.
I finished my silk painting today. It was epic. The only assignment I have left for my intermediate costume class is my portfolio. And then this semester will be over and forgotten.

Future Husband:

Joseph Gordon-Levitt
He's the indie darling I'd like to share my days with.
For more info see: Mysterious Skin, Brick, and The Lookout

Pretty Good Cape Weather

2008-11-22T22:12:00.000-08:00

Bad news bears....i didn't get the RA job. boo.
oh well. I don't mind living with my roomies for another semester. I just really wanted my housing and food to be paid for. And I would love to be an RA. There's always next time.

I would like to start making a series of vlogs and shorts for my Youtube channel. I don't have anything up yet. I want to upload my trailer first but I still haven't figured out how to get it from DVD to Youtube.

Ingrid found an eyelash in a measuring cup I lent to Kelsey. She said,"Geez Kat! What are you measuring slash what are you baking?!"

Jarymar gave me an idea for a clothing company. I've always wanted to make my own clothes but I've sort of put the idea on the back burner. Well the types of clothes I want to make are unisex one pieces. She told me to call the clothing label Unicorn. I just might do that Jary.

New Idea: Study Abroad in Finland. Helsinki is starting to appeal to me. I'm looking into it.

Future Husband:

Wes Anderson
Maybe if we get married he will write and direct a beautiful film about me. Maybe.

Make Mom and Dad Proud

2008-11-22T00:58:00.000-08:00

My short film trailer was premiered at the film festival. It went well. I got a lot of good feed back and some people even wanted to see the full length. I had to tell them there was none and might never be one. I can't say that. I should say that there wouldn't be one any time soon. I will try and get it on Youtube and onto this blog asap. I'm just not sure how.
I was so nervous. I didn't win any awards or prizes or anything. But I didn't mind. The nice words were good enough.

I am excited to start my newest project. I want to make a mocumentary. There was one at the film festival and I thought it was hilarious. It was made by some of my friends and it reminded me of Christopher Guest's genius. I would like to make one about cults and weird religious behavior and hippie communes. I mostly want to make this film because of the potential for awesome costumes. And weird make up and soundtrack. Not actual content. Comment if you'd like to be in my next venture. I need a lot of actors with little to no talent. All ages, all body types, and all ethnicities. I really want to get started on this during the Christmas break. I will edit it during the Spring semester.

By the way...I want to make more music videos. Maybe with the real band in it this time. Just thought I'd put it out there.

The road trip is still on as of this moment. Abe is driving. Frank is shotgun. I like the peace in the backseat. I will be busy napping and journaling our trip. Hopefully we can stop at a few thrift shops.
It would make for fun pit stops and shopping expeditions. I'm not sure if I will make a video of anything. I'm hoping to get some new pictures of me and Jason.

Future Husband:

Andrew Vanwyngarden of MGMT
I think he pretty much gets the mystical side of me.
And he has the most adorable face.

Don't we make a cute couple?

Singin' Hallelujah With the Fear in Your Heart

2008-11-20T18:53:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow is the premier of my short film trailer "Etienne's Gaining Weight".
I am so excited and I hope that you all attend the film festival if you are able to. It is the first of it's kind at St. Edward's and I'm pretty glad to be a part of history.

I am about 30% done with my silk octopus painting. It is due next Tuesday and I still have lots to due.
Today I got to take home bundles of free clothes from the Costume Shop. I'm thinking about starting an online shop where I can sell unique and one of a kind clothing to people all over the world. I'm sure people in Austin will want to buy some of the clothing I have but I think it is meant for a broader audience who will appreciate the costume quality.

The best thing I got today was a cape. I am now the proud owner of a brocade cape. It's magical and I'm going to work it into my style. It won't be too hard though. I've been wanting a cape but I never thought about a color besides black.

I have to come up with my Christmas Wish List. I don't expect anyone to give my any gifts but if you're thinking about it then look no further. I'm going to try and make all my gifts by hand. I feel like there is so much more love in them. And I'm just cheap.

Future Husband:

Vincent Kartheiser from Crime+Punishment in Suburbia
He's an outcast and a savior and a stalker and a voyeur.
He made a really crappy C movie into a cult classic for me.

God Only Knows What I'd Be Without You

2008-11-18T22:40:00.000-08:00

I finished editing my short film trailer today. It is epic.
I hope the film festival powers that be will take a late submission.
I'm very excited for everyone to see it. I'm so excited I almost wish I had made a whole short film instead of just the trailer. Almost.

This week I will start and hopefully finish my silk painting of an octopus. I have yet to find a name for the painting. I'm leaning towards Esteban or Kingsley.

This week holds a lot for me. Friday is the Film Festival and it is also when I will find out if I'm going to be an RA next semester. Pray for me. I really need that job in more ways than one.

I can't wait until Thanksgiving break. Fingers crossed that I am able to road trip to Oklahoma. I've decided that I'm spending all my "money" on seeing Jason Castro perform this holiday season as a gift to myself. So instead of throwing a birthday party for other people to enjoy I will be enjoying myself at my favorite performer's concert.

I had small group Bible study today. We went to a private praise and worship meeting thing. It was intense. There was acoustic guitar strumming, Christian music singing, prayer, speaking in tongues, praising, healing, and meditation. I was laying on the floor listening to Bekah strum the guitar and sing a beautiful song and I just felt myself fall asleep. I woke up and everyone was singing "Majesty" really loud so I just joined in. It was very cool but I had to leave because I promised some friends that I would meet them for coffee. My time spent at praise and worship really got me excited about possibly making Christian Dance music. I don't know how this would sound but I'm very excited about it.
I think I'm currently in a band called JEN. I believe that I will be playing the keyboard, gameboy, and possibly slide whistle. Oh and I think I might be supplying vocals. The band has some pretty strict rules but I think I can contribute my natural gift of songwriting.

So I'm going to be doing this thing called Future Husband. Not of the week or of the day...just whenever. You can give me a high five whenever you see me if you agree that that certain guy should be my future husband. Never mind technicalities such as their marital status or sexual orientation. I'm just saying it would be cool if they were my Future Husband. They might also be fictional characters or not exist.

First Official Future Husband:

Win Butler of the band Arcade Fire. He's married to Regine who's also in the band but like I said before...just a technicality.

Heartbeats

2008-11-16T22:46:00.000-08:00

I remember when I was a little goth kid in high school. I was a total closet goth though. I adored HIM and My Chemical Romance. Their music was so dark and gloomy...but romantic as well. I especially liked the escapism of it all.

"We are so young
Our lives have just begun
But already we are considering
escape from this world."
-"Join Me In Death" HIM

I wanted my first car to be a hearse. And my 17th birthday was funeral themed. I was obsessed with all things morbid and macabre.
I grew out of that phase.

I would still like to escape...but not from this world. Maybe from this country or this continent. I have to many things to complete in this life. I have too many goals to cut my life short now.

I just want you all to know that you are not alone. Don't ever think you're alone in this world. If you ever think about escaping, just think about all those you will leave behind. I would never want anyone to join me in death.
I do love the song "I will follow you into the dark" by Deathcab for Cutie.

Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

Please don't be afraid to keep on living. I know it's hard and it sucks sometimes but you have to win. You can't lose and you can't give up. You might miss out on something you didn't know was there.

Life is too much fun to give up.

We're on the bed but your clothes are laying right there

2008-11-13T22:45:00.000-08:00

I'm a total music snob. So naturally I went to the Metro Station concert tonight. I took Kelsey with me because they sing a song called, well, "Kelsey".
I felt super old at that show. Everyone was like 13 and 14. It reminded me of going to shows in high school.
I know it's really lame to say you enjoy bands like Metro Station but I don't care. It was such a funny show. We made fun of all the trashy scene teens and moms and dads.
Kelsey and I waited outside afterwards and met the band members.
Since when did 20 year old guys start dressing like 14 year old girls? Stop shopping at Forever 21 boyz!! Maybe pre-teens think its hot but I don't.

Someone spilled their beer on me. I didn't think that anyone there was even old enough to smoke cigarettes.

f.y.i Trace Cyrus smells like weed in person.

Mason is pretty much the talent of the band.

Let Your Fiber Show

2008-11-12T21:02:00.001-08:00

Ugh. I can't register for classes until I pay the educational vampires that I call St. Edward's University.
I miss Frank and his scarf Fibrola. Seriously, she was like the best scarf EVER. And she only ever looked good with his mystical Unicorn tee.
If you ask someone if they are the Devil, and they freak out...chances are they're the Devil.

My new style icon might be Mickey Mouse ...or Luke Skywalker. I've seen someone around campus wearing a Yoda backpack. And a Chewbacca backpack.

Possible travel locations: Tulsa this Thanksgiving, Dallas in December, Marfa next May, London a year from now.

I will never be a wunderkind.

When I am older I will start a recycling center in San Antonio, Texas. It will be like The Free Store of Haight-Ashbury. People will be able to donate their unwanted items and take anything they want for free. I'm not sure how I will pay the bills with this recycling center but I know it is exactly what San Antonio needs. Maybe I will rent space out for events and live music and charge an entrance fee in order to keep the free store running.
Comment me if you are interested in starting a free store in San Antonio. Austin is too advanced for this kind of thing even thought it might work better.

Magic? I'll show you magic.

Breakfast for Dinner

2008-11-11T22:59:00.000-08:00

I'm pretty jealous of my friend April who gets mail from her long distance boyfriend. He sends her a bunch of rad packages that say stuff like "You are the best organism on earth" and contain chocolate kisses. If only we all had thoughtful long distance boyfriends that cared about us that much.

I had blueberry pancakes and eggs for dinner at Danielle's apartment tonight. Very delicious stuff.

Sometimes I make lists in my head of men I would like to marry. They always change but sometimes I think of the same ones. Like Jeff Goldblume. I'm dying to hear that man pop the question. I could go on and on about who I'd like my future husband to be but then I would just be sad.

My hair is in an icky growing out stage that upsets me and makes my head look all gross and round. I want it to be all long and full right now. I want to braid it and tease it up into a bird nest like my friend Rebecca's hair.

I am in the process of editing my short film trailer. It is taking longer than I thought. I also have a silk painting to start and a few papers to finish ...or start rather.

My hand still hurts. Ouch! Don't you love listening to me complain.

I hope that Frank gets to move in with me soon. He will be a nice addition to the apartment.

Wear Your Cat Vest With Pride

2008-11-10T21:27:00.000-08:00

My hand hurts. Ouch!
I pretty much want to create a line of T-shirts that incorporates all that is mystical and wild.
I'm hoping Ingrid will help me with this project. I want the artwork on the tees to be of things like crystal formations, dream catchers, wolves, gemstones, and galaxies.

I kind of want to see Metro Station perform this week at La Zona Rosa. I don't care what reputation the band has, I just like their songs.

I'm attending a Q&A with Ian Mackaye on Friday. I'm going to ask him questions about being Straight Edge and how it relates to the music industry.

I only have a couple more months left to be a teenager. In December I'll be celebrating my 20th birthday. Hopefully I'll be celebrating it by throwing an awesome party in my apartment.

Favorite Song of the Moment: "The Newcomer of Seven Years" by PlayRadioPlay!
I'm thinking about using it in my short film trailer.

Let's Start A Band

2008-11-09T23:06:00.000-08:00

I am currently growing my hair out.
I don't think I will cut it until it has grown long enough for a style.
I want LONG and BIG hair that I can braid and tease up.
Thanksgiving seems like a boring holiday to me. I feel like wearing a vest with cats on it and serving food to the homeless and less fortunate. I want someone else to enjoy the holiday. I would just take it for granted. I'm not sure if I will spend it in Austin or San Antonio. We will see.
I want to be done with this semester by the time Thanksgiving break comes around.

"I've Never Been to Heaven but I've Been to Oklahoma."

I am seriously considering taking a road trip to Tulsa, Oklahoma the weekend of Thanksgiving. I want to see Jason in concert again and possibly visit my friend Samantha. My friend April expressed interest in going with me but I'm not sure if she's sincere. If you wanna come with me then just tell me in a comment. I would love some company. And admission to Jason's gig is only $25. It might be a bit pricey to travel but it's affordable if you split the cost.

Road trip soundtrack: Hanson "Middle of Nowhere" ....duh!

Blog About Me Sometime

2008-11-08T23:29:00.000-08:00

I'm working on new and exciting things again. Right now I'm in the process of filming scenes for a trailer I'm making for a short film I'm thinking about making. I will premiere the trailer at the Sorin Reel Film Festival at school. I'm very excited about showing everyone this story I've had in my head. I first came up with it this summer and now it is coming to life with the help of a few friends.
The short film is titled Etienne's Gaining Weight. It is a film about two eccentric gay teenage outcasts in the Midwest who attempt a heterosexual relationship in order to be free of sin and end up falling in love with each other. I don't know if the trailer to this short film will explain the story fully but I hope that the audience walks away with some understanding.
If you read some of my older posts then you might remember what short film idea I'm making reference to. The idea came to me this past summer when I was suffering from insomnia and I needed to create an alternate world to retreat to. I made up the two characters Gemma and Etienne who's names have changed many times since then. There story is still the same. I'm not sure what sort of message this short film is supposed to be sending but I am in no way trying to pass judgment on anyone's sexual orientation. This story is more about Christ's love than human love. It's hard to believe but it's true. I'll post the video of the trailer as soon as it's done so that you may see for yourself.

I've also been working on more tangible forms of art such as hats and felting. I finally finished the hat project for my costume class and I am very proud of my final product. I will post some quality pictures as soon as I have some taken for my portfolio. Now our class is moving on to dyeing silk and distressing fabrics. I'm glad I decided to take that class and I'm anticipating the classes I will be taking next semester.

I have been having day dreams of a possible road trip this summer. Nothing big and no where far. I just want to travel to Marfa, Texas. I've been to Marfa once before and I feel the need to see it again in all it's glory. I will need companions.
What I really want is to go on tour with a band. I want to be a merch girl or a personal assistant. I really want to travel and sleep in buses and go days without showering and find myself at a truck stop at 5 in the morning. Nothing would make me happier.

Dear Jason Castro,
Please take me on tour with you next summer. I want to spend all summer with your spirit.

P.S. Does anybody out there wanna road trip with me this Thanksgiving weekend to Tulsa, Oklahoma? We can visit the birthplace of Hanson and I heard about this little show on the 29th at the Fly Trap Music Hall. This guy named Jason Castro will be playing his first show there since American Idol. I really want to go. Early birthday/Christmas gifts anyone??